Snaked🐍

Chapter Six- Carter

She's fucking perfect. The way her lips curve, the way she says my name, the way her hair's always covering the side of her eyes. Goddamn. She's not my wife, but hell, I wish she was.

Don't get me wrong, I do love Kam.  At least, I think I do. Well, I did... before I got to know Saige the way I know her now. I never once thought I'd end up being more in love with Saige than I ever was with Kam but I can't control it. It's like I'm constantly being pulled towards her without her even doing anything to encourage it.

You see, the first time I met Saige was at the end of high school, when it was our farewell party. It was a few weeks after Kam and I had got together and obviously I turned a blind eye to my girlfriend's best friend. I always thought of her as a sister, but now the thought disgusts me because I can't be having such vulgar thoughts about my so-called sister.
I didn't expect anything to happen with Saige until that night... I did a very bad thing that night and I still don't know how to break it to Saige, but I do know it has to be done and I will tell her - soon - just not right now. I don't think the time's right.

Kam doesn't deserve half my love... she's a great lady. She's just extremely sensitive and she's very attached to me, to our relationship. For me to put the flame out would be ripping her apart, setting her on fire and watching her burn. I don't want to hurt her like that so I guess it's better that she doesn't know about Saige and I.

I needed some time to think and put my mind right, so I stopped at Mary-Lynn's on the way to work. (Mary Lynn's has been my favourite coffee shop ever since high school.) They make the absolute best coffee and I thought maybe it'd calm me down a bit after this morning. I couldn't imagine what I was putting Saige through, honestly... giving her mixed signals and throwing myself onto her while I'm married! Jesus Christ. That's a real dick move. She must feel like such a side course.

God, just imagine how Kam would feel if she ever found out. She'd feel like she wasn't good enough, like just the way she was wasn't enough for me. Kam's a great wife, though... bubbly personality, beautiful inside and out but the problem is, she's not right for me. She loves me, yes, but that's not how it's supposed to be. I just think we jumped into things way too early and maybe we should've had some time to think about what we wanted before we said our vows.

I would really miss her if I ever had to walk out but I know I'd get over it soon because I'd have Saige. I don't expect Saige to just jump straight into my arms, honestly, I don't expect her to betray her friend... not that she hasn't done enough of that already, but oh well, sometimes we all need a new beginning, right?

"A large mocha, please, Jenna." I smiled. I went there so often I was on personal terms with almost all the workers. Jenna was a very sweet old lady. She was in her mid 60's with grey hair that always had a streak of colour in it and she was always in some type of overalls. She had been the owner of Mary Lynn's ever since her mother handed it down to her when she was 22. I don't think she ever felt the need to find another job, I mean, Mary Lynn's was quite a successful coffee shop if I do say so myself.

I always get a window table so I can admire the outdoors as I sit and wait for my order. I peered out the glass- squirrels clambering up trees, little babies in prams, Saige walking past. SAIGE? What the hell. I ran outside.
"SAIGE!" I hollered. She turned around and looked at me, head cocked to one side.
She stormed up to me and I could tell that she had been crying. Her eyes were red and puffy and her cheeks were a bright pink. Damn. I'm not gonna say she didn't still look cute as hell.

I took off my coat and put it around her because it was a bit cold out. "Come on, Love, let's get you inside."
I tried directing her into the coffee shop but she threw my arms off her shoulders and started screaming at me.
"WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME? WHY ARE YOU LEADING ME ON LIKE THIS AND MAKING ME FALL SO IN LOVE WITH YOU WHEN YOU'RE MARRIED TO KAMRYN?"
"Saige, you're making a scene, come inside, now." I looked at her and put my hands around her shoulders again and I felt her tense up. "Don't fight it, just come."

We stood there for a few seconds just staring at each other. I felt her hard eyes become soft again and eventually she followed me inside. God, even when she's furious and crying she's still gorgeous. We sat down and she looked at me as if she was broken inside. I felt like shit. Why was I so stupid to hurt such a perfect woman?

"I'm falling for you." Saige heaved. Our gazes locked and for a second, just a second, it felt like we were the only two people in the world. I could've died at that moment and died happy because I would've been looking into her eyes. I know what you're thinking, I'm really cliché, right? It's alright, Saige thinks that too... but I know she loves it.
"I've fallen for you," I replied.
"and I'm still falling."

"You have to tell me what happened that night, Carter." Saige insisted.
"That night brought these feelings forward. When I woke up that morning I felt different looking at you... I need to know why."
"I'll tell you soon, my love." I reassured her. I wasn't lying. I was going to tell her soon. I knew I had to. Just not at that moment when everything was coming to a standstill and the only thing I could see was her face.

I took Saige's hand and clasped it within mine, brushing my thumb down hers. I was filled with so many emotions, screaming to get out. All I wanted was to be close to her, to hold her, to hear her breathe. I wanted to feel the peace and safeness I got every time I touched her. That was home.
I needed to go home...

TO BE CONTINUED.