void

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People ask me "what does
depression feel like?" 

Thats kind of the problem...
You can't feel it
You can't feel anything

I feel a void
I feel an empty space inside of me
I feel a far away longing for something... anything

I try to fill it
I try to fill it with anything but it never succeeds

Maybe it will stay for a day, week, maybe even a month if I'm lucky Then all at once every drop of fulfillment vanished as if it was never there

It's like a warm blanket getting ripped off in the morning

I try to fill it and keep it filled with every fiber of my being
I would do anything to get rid of this space where my heart is suppose to be

Without it i feel nothing
Without it i feel numb

I would rather hurt than  feel nothing
I would rather burn than to not touch
I would rather cut my skin to remember how to feel, than to loose feeling overall

Most assume depression is an over load of sadness, anger, or anxiety.....when in reality it's the lack of

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