Again.

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No

No.

This is not happening again. It can't be I was getting better! It was all getting better. What happened? What the fuck happened? I had control! I finally had fucking control of my life. I didn't see it coming it didn't even come. It was one spilt second and now I'm back. Back to emptiness. Hollow. I'm back to hiding things. Emotions. Opinions. Words.
I was talking so much! I was doing so good! But that is all gone now.

I'm can't sleep again.
I stopped eating again.
I starting hurting myself again.
I'm depressed again.
I'm weak again.
Im scared again.
I'm lonely again.
I don't talk much again.
I hate myself again.
I'm insecure                         again.     I want to die again
I can't find a way out again.
Im flooded by dark again.
I'm sinking again.
Im gasping for air again. I'm drowning again.
I'm a failure                       ..........

Well, I guess some things never              changed in the first place.

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⏰ Last updated: Jun 25, 2018 ⏰

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