Broken Heart||Pennywise X Reader||

Goodbye

I woke up in my bed. I gasped as I saw a little girl running in the room. "Mama! My friend is here!" The girl shouts out. She looks at her open closet and she waves her hand at the clothes that hung from the hangers.

"Hun... Where is your friend?" My mom said in concern. She held the little girl back against her chest.

"He's right there, Mama... His name's Pennywise. He's a clown... A dancing one!" The girl clapped her hands in excitement.

I shook my head and I stepped back.

"No. That can't be me, how did I not remember?" I said as I started to panic.

I turned around and saw the girl that got older. She was in her 7-10. "No stop, Pennywise! That's my favorite color. I'll give you this color and then--Oh right fine." She pouted.

She hands the crayon to the chair in front of her. Pennywise wasn't sitting there, this was all in my head. Was it?

I closed my eyes and covered my ears. "It's not real. It's not real!" I shouted.

"You're such a loser! No wonder you have no friends." The 17 year old kids say to the girl. The girl was me as I got older, the pasts was all the worst days.

"I have a friend, he's--"

"He's a dumb clown, and you saw he's your boyfriend. Ha! You're such a whore." The man says. The girl runs away as tear fell down her face.

I followed her to a classroom that was probably not even used by teachers or students.

"I need help, Pennywise." The girl whispers. "Those kids... They just--such mean jerks. I just wish they saw you." The girl sobbed. I stood behind her and I watched her talk to no one.

"Yes... Please..." She utters.

"Kill them..." My eyes widen as I heard that, I wasn't that brutal in high school, was I?

Was I that crazy?

A hand goes over my mouth and I tried to scream. The smell of cotton candy filled the room and demonic laughs echoed in my ears.

"Guess who?" Pennywise growled.

***

I flinch up in the sewers, I looked around my surroundings. I got up and started to run in the tunnels. I could hear someone singing in my ears as it echoes. "Y/N, you can run, but can't hide." A deep voice said. I sobbed in terror as I heard growls behind me. I didn't want to look back.

"Leave me alone!" I cried out. I fell in the grey water and small heads float up to the water surface. I scream in horror at the heads floating. I get up and ran past them.

"Y/N, where you going?" I stopped at my tracks, the voice was familiar.

I turned around and saw Luna, I let out a whimper as I saw her missing limb. "Come join me.... Come join us... We'll be a family again..." Luna smiles as their parents stood behind Lune with makeup like Pennywises. I gasped and turned to run the other way.

I kept running, I had to leave this place. I wasn't letting Pennywise haunt me anymore. I wish he would just be a nice clown who loved me. Who accepted me as for who I was, and for what I did.

I ran into the forest, deeper than I can go. I could tell Pennywise could sense me in here, so I stopped. I'm not running anymore.

I could hear twigs snapping, making me bring my attention to those directions where the snaps were. I my heart stopped as I felt warm breath on my neck.

My eyes look to my shoulder and saw the white gloves going over my neck. I stood my ground as I took deep breaths. "You're so much stronger than any other child... That's why I don't kill you."

"I gave you haunted memories or nightmares to test if you really are scared of me. Making you think you're crazy towards your friends. But I do it..." He pauses.

His lips brush against my neck. His lips move when he spoke. "Because I love you." He whispered. His hands grab my waist, pulling me back to his chest.

He kept kissing my neck and I softly moaned. I could feel his tongue brush against my neck, I didn't lo be the feeling but I was starting to.

"I hate you... But I can't stop loving you." I said to him. He chuckles on my neck and pulls away.

I faced him and I messed with the puff ball on his little clown outfit. "You know Y/N, you can join me." He said softly. "You can live with me down in the sewer, you can't eat like me, help me. Crave me... Be like me..." He said. I looked at him and I bit my lip.

"You'll be a clown like me, you just need to trust me," He puts his hand out for me to grab.

I look at his hand then back at him. "Anything for my clown." I smirked, he smiles as he grabs my hand. He pulls me close to him and he kisses me.

I kissed back roughly, this kiss probably lasted for a couple minutes before he pulled away.

He softly stroke my cheek and he saw the red lines on her face that he had on his cheeks to his mouth. Her lips became more red than her natural pink lips.

He smiles and cupped her cheek. "You're so beautiful." He says softly.

She looks up at him.

Her eyes were e/c that changed to yellow with red rings around her eyes.

This was probably worse. Meh