Prussia x reader - lost and forgotten

Chapter 4

After that day I can't get this particular day out of my head. He tried to kiss me.. Should I have not answered my phone..? I shake my head and pull my covers over my head. I want this day to end and put me out of my misery.

I wake up, my head turned all funky. I sit up and groan in the pain my sleeping has put me in. I hate those days so much. I go in my bathroom, I haven't showered since yesterday and I feel all yucky from sweating all night.

I let the hot water hit my bare skin, it feels so nice and relaxing. I take a deep breath in, I inhaling the aroma of the sweet smell of shampoo.

I step out of the shower, the fog coated the bathroom I can barely see my way to the door. I turn the knob and step out, my eyes closed. I don't mind to put a towel on because I know he wouldn't walk in.

I open my eyes and see Gilbert standing there, his face bright red, then hiding his face quickly in his hands and walking out, not making it out the first time. " oh my god! " my heart is beating so loud it's about to explode. He just saw me.. Naked.

I sit on my bed sobbing, if you were a girl you'd understand the way I am. As a kid I never really showed skin, or my body to my mom. I was shy like that. Now that someone else saw it, a-a man! What am I going to do!? I'm scared to even live right now.

I hold my pillow close to my face, my breathing doesn't slow or doesn't quicken. I don't know what to do.. I don't want to see him right now! I had always been insecure of what people saw or thought about me, I thought my body was ugly which very girl goes through, but I was beyond that.

It's been about 3 hours and I haven't eaten or drank anything at all. At this point I don't know how to feel. I feel empty.

I can't stay in here the whole day, the poor guy feels terrible. And I bet this isn't making it any better. I go in my bathroom and look at my eyes, the look fine.

Awkwardly, I step out of my cave, peeking my head out to see if he's anywhere in sight. I see him on the couch, his head hung down. Quietly, I make my way to him. I sit on the couch, sitting to where my body is faced to him. " Hey.. " I say quietly. " Hey. " he repeats, I can tell by the way he softly spoke he is embarrassed. " I'm sorry.. I thought- " I put a hand on his shoulder and look at him. " It's not your fault, it's mine. I know it's awkward but eventually we will get over it. "

We basically spent the whole day in silence, saying a very short amount of words. Finally I hear him speak. " I feel like shit. " he says, he must feel really bad about it. " Gil, like I said its not your fault.. It's alright. " I give him a small smile which he doesn't return.

It has felt awkward all day today and I hope tomorrow will be the opposite.

I wake up and brush my teeth, washing away my morning breath. I step outside my door and see Gilbert sleeping. I look at the clock and it read somewhere around 6, I was not fully awake. I close my bedroom door and plop on my bed and fall asleep for awhile longer.

I get up around 9 and walk out there. I lay on the floor beside the couch and look up at Gilbert who is laying on the couch. " Hello. " I say with a smile. " Hallo. " I smile even more and then close my eyes, sighing.

" Hey Gilbert? Can I ask you something? " I wonder if this is a good time. If it isn't he will tell me and I'm perfectly fine waiting awhile longer. " Ja? " you hesitate to ask him. " Well.. If you don't mind telling me, what lead you to on the streets..? " I fiddle with my hands in nervousness, I can tell he could see that.

" I don't mind telling you. " he said, looking at me, he let his hand prop himself up. " Tell me about your life. " I say with a light smile. I was curious, I loved hearing about people's lives.

" When I was younger my younger brother and I were close. I took care of him and spoiled him everywhere I go. " he gave a small smile, not making eye contact anymore, it looks as if he was thinking of past memories as he talked. He talked a lot about him and his brother, it was intriguing.

" I was once known as a country, Prussia. I was a country for awhile, it was fun. We had world meetings.. " It was him! The country that fell!. He told me how he fell. I frowned and kept listening. His life was so interesting, " It was just like that is if it was yesterday. My brother disowned me, everyone forgot about me. I was alone. " I could hear him sniff. I looked up at his and saw a tear run down his face. " I miss those times.. " he looked down and I put my hand through his hair, what my mom did to me when I cried. " I'm sorry.. That's horrible.. " I whisper. He looked at me, he looked sad and it broke my heart.

Finally after awhile of me cheering him up he asked to hear my life. " Well.. Ever since I was little my dad and I had been close, he opened a bakery, where I work now. I loved him so much.. I looked forward to see him everyday after school. But one day u was the last kid waiting for their parent, I sat there and got worried. My mother died of cancer and no relatives lived close by. " I look down at my hands. " Finally I gave up and walked home. I didn't figure out he had a heart attack about a day later, i was frightened. So then I went into adoption. I hated my life until now.. I'm happier than I was. I miss my parents. " I cry silently, hoping he didn't see. " (y/n) .. " he sits beside me and pulls me into a hug. I cry on his shoulder, we stay like that for what seems like forever. My heart was beating at the same time.. Is-.. Is this what I think I'm feeling..

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