Staring up at this primped woman,i think, there must be a catch to this seeminly nice woman, " Come on child, I have so much to show you!" i take a wearily few steps up before the woman turns and starts walking into this house, it seemed to have remided me of the murder house from American Horror Story, Mixed with the aslyum from season 2, "So, is there people screaming at walls and electro-shock therpy here?" i ask in my small voice, She stops and turns, "look kid, im not going to lie, we do have the occasional screamer and only in extream cases" she ends with a wink to ensure shes joking, well i think.
"And lastly this is the chill out room, youll have to spend most your time here" The woman, whose name i found out is Wendy says before she turns and walks away. I step into the huge room, it looks like a youth club, a computor in the corner, a huge tv with a ps3 and a pile of games, a huge couch with 2 kids playing a game on it, theres even a foosball table, a huge window which shows the street of where i came in from, and a boy, staring outside the window, hes tall, easily taller than me, his shaggy hair looking familiar, and his slouched posistion i remember, i approach him, despite my heart threatening an attack.
"what do you want" he turns and says in an irritated tone as soon as I'm a step away, My eyes widen at his reply to my unasked question."I erm, will yo-you show me-me round a li-little?" I stutter out, his reply comes out monotone, "I thought Wendy did", "erm well, she showed me my room and thi-this room and the ba-bathroom but I need more information?" it came out as a question, he signed, not a small one, oh no, a long are-you-taking-the-piss sigh. silently he turned and walked away, before motioning me to come, I follow.
"keep up with me cause I ain't gonna slow down for you" I suspect an accent but don't ask, I don't want to irritate him.more, so I fall in step with him, his large steps result in 3 of my own.
We walk down hallways with him pointing out little things, "Did Wendy tell you the bathroom rule?" I shake my head. "erm okay, well come with me to my room and ill explain a little more, its easier than walking and talking" he says before setting of to.his room, I scratch.my arm, something I do when nervous or scared before falling him down a hallway, we stop at 120 ,he pushes this door open and walks in, I walk in after him, there's a couch bed, a tv, a rug on the floor, a pinboard filled with pictures and a vinyl player with a box next to.it, the room is so.chilled out, I wonder about it as I sit on his bed, he joins me. "I've been here a.while" he explains, I nod in response. "So, the bathroom is awkward, there's no concept of privacy here, lock the door, baracade it, people will still get I'm so domt other, just ensure you may get walked in on, were actually moving put of this creepy old.house at the end of this month to the renovated teens house, its mordern and has things kids like, purely for the fact that more kids are getting mentally fucked up, you get the decorate your own room.there, since you'll be here a while depending.on how fucked you are, now instead of people coming.to visit us, we go out for a weekend, about 2 times a.month,but somepeople, don't have people to visit or dont want to visit hem, like me"he went silent to take a breath or two,"we leave here at the end of this month, our next weekend out of here is this weekend, so yoi have 4 or 5 days, if you want you can come with me, we can stay in a hotel and get drunk and just breath for a while" he ends with a smirk, this is the longest conversation we've ever had, I laugh to myself before nodding.my head yes.
We walked back to the chill out room, the 2 girls on the couch were still there watching tv and ocasiomally chatting, Nate and I Joined them and we decided to sit in a circle on the floor, they were quick to introduce themselfs, a girl with dimmed red hair up to her shoulders with a fringe that sweeps across her forehead, she had blue eyes, "Hi, I'm Grace!" she exclaimed sticking her hand out, I took her hand and shook it, the girl next to her had equally short hair, this time blonde with a parting down the middle, she also had blue eyes, "Hey, Im Eve" she ends.with a smile, I politely smile back, they seem normal, why are they in here? "Erm why exactly are you in here?" I ask quietly, "Well" Eve says "I have tourettes, but not like swearing and stuff, i shouts what I'm thinking, and well yeah, I would tell you why I'm here but I'd prefer not, I'm leaving in a month anyways" I simply nod at her, "Well im, erm here, cause I have an extream case of erm Paranoia, Anxiety, Erm Panic attacks and th-thats it" Grace stuttered out, "So nate, why- why are you here?" i ask turning to him on my left. "erm well, i have schizophrenia" he explained simply with a shrug of the shoulders,"what about you new girl, why are you here then?" Eve said in a strained tone, Wel" i start " I got sent here by my father, because well i tried to kill myself for the fifth time, depression and I have anorexia" i nod. I hated their eyes being on me, feeling like i was a thing in the corner, 'Even other people who are fucked up dont like you,god youre so dumb, you really think that they would, you're not worth the extra weight' i ignore the voices, suddenly the door banged open and a girl walked in, with another boy on her arm, she have big curly black hair and brown eyes, she wore a smirk on her face, before her eyes landed on me, her smirk widened before she approched our little group, "Hello fresh meat, I'm Mellissa, call me Mel, or don't even talk to me, Listen here, I'm the queen bee here, i know it sounds weird, but i am, If you get on the wrong side of me i wont be scared to rip your teeth out with pliers" she says with a scowl before turning and walking away, leaving the other boy stood there, "Hi, i'm e-erm Dylan, I a-ap-appologise a-about he-her, s-shes jus-st a bi-bitch" he ends with a chuckle, He was cute to say the least, with curly brown hair and green peircing eyes, he had dimples when he smiled, it was contatious, because before long i was smiling with him, "erm, W-wendy said w-we have in-intro-introduction c-circ l-l-later" Dylan said while stuttering, "Great! We'll be there soon" Nate said with a smile as Dylan walked away, "God I hate that bitch!" Eve screamed out, shocking me, my eyes wide everyone burst out laughing, i joined in after a while finding it weird to hear the laugh that i never laughed, I've not laughed for 11 years.
We all left chill out an hour later and made our way to the therapist room a few hallways away sitting in my uncomfortable plastic chair along with everyone else, and by everyone I mean Nate,Grace,Eve,Mel,Dylan and Damo, we all sat as Wendy explains what we have to say, name, age, why we are here, what's our problem and how we feel. it starts with Nate who stood up, "Well as you know, I'm Nate, I.was sent here because I had a mental breakdown a little after Skar was admitted to hospital, I have Schizophrenia and I'm ecstatic!" he ends, it continues.
"Well I'm D-Dylan and I-erm-I'm, 17, I-I'm Nates br-brother ah, I'm here cau-cause I e-erm hu-hurt a bo-boy bad, erm I have sp-split per-person-personality disorder, And I'm doing frEAKING GREAT" he ends.with wide eyes and a creepy smile,"Sorry boy-bout that, it-it kin-kinda sn-sneaks up o-on me, ex-expect mo-more of it" he adds.then sits.
"Well I'm Eve, I'm 16, I was sent in here cause I kinda.said how I was going to get a gun and.shoot everyone, I would have gone.through with it if I ddidn't say it to my shrink, I have truth tourettes and I'm pissed off cause I'm stuck in this shithole with that stuck up cow!" she ends pointing at Mel, who sits with a smirk.
"I'm Grace, I wouldn't leave my room I was so scared, the outside world is a terrible place and I don't see how people couldn't be.mental with this as reality, I have paranoia, anxiety and I have panic attacks, I'm scared"
It was my turn. and I was shitting it'You can't tell them, you'll seem weak and pathetic, not that you aren't, cause you are, god you're pathetic, why are you still here' I take deep.breaths and stand.
"I'm Skar, I was sent here by my arsehole.dad.who decided I was mental after I tried.to kill myself again, Im anorexic and depressed, I'm always edgy and whatever, I'm pissed off" I sit.
"I'm Mel, I was sent here cause I nearly killed some Bitch, I.have Narsastic personality disorder and ADHD, I'm dpi.g okay" she ends with a wink to Dylan who flairs up bright red before sitting.
Next a boy with straight black.hair stands, his bloodshot eyes covered by his fringe,"I'm Damo, um I'm 17, I was sent here cause erm I um hurt maself, and.erm never left my room, I.never slept either Ahaha, I have insomnia and depression, Im.high on medical pot" he laughed out, which earned some chuckles out of everyone, we all sat and talked, ( well Mel and Dylan sat in a corner flirting , Damo planked on the floor laugh his head off, Eve screamed at the air, Mason was talking.to himself, switching sides of his head for different things he.said, like an argument, Grace sat awkwardly in.the corner.with earphones and a book, I sat there, in the middle, a room full of people and I felt so alone. 'Loser, loner, alone, pathetic, weak, boring, unwanted, worthless, fat, whale, mistake, Loser, loner, alone, pathetic, weak, boring, unwanted, worthless, fat, whale, mistake, Loser, loner, alone, pathetic, weak, boring, unwanted, worthless, fat, whale, mistake'. I scream.
Everyones head snapped towards me, Nate running over,"calm down" he said, he repeated it as tears fell.freely down my face, he clutched onto me, hugging me, while screaming to get Wendy, last thing I heard before I blacked out.was Nate, "Its all going to be okay, its gonna be fine" and for the first time in a long tome, I believed the words.
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Clinically Insane
De TodoI never really knew what was normal and what wasn't, we never really are never really knew what was normal and what wasn't, we never really are told , we find out ourself, we don't even get a guideline of what is normal and what isn't, how am I to k...
