It All Fell Apart

Without You

"Ms.Beadles? Ms.Beadles?" I snap out of it. "What?!" I roll my eyes. "You have some visitors." She opened the door and in came Jayden and Jaslyn. "Mommy!" They try climbing onto the bed, but the nurse stops them. After some alone time with them, Nick and Demi came in. After some time of talking I brought up the burning question. "Where's Justin?" I sat up and groaned. "Um, he's not coming." Demi rubbed my arm. "What?! Why not?!" I became furious. "Well we tried contacting him but he wouldn't answer, so we called scooter and he said he's not coming. I'm sorry." Nick grabbed my hand and rubbed it with his thumb. "Why wouldn't he come?" I began to cry. "Because he's an a-""Demi!" Nick gave her a look and she stopped talking. "Thank you Nick for being there when I had to-" I cry harder remembering how I still had to push it out. They called it a "Natural Miscarriage" or something. "You did great. I knew you would. You're the strongest person I know." I lightly smile as he wipes the tears off my cheeks. After about an hour Demi leaves to take the kids to Patties. She volunteered to watch them for the week so I can relax. I just wish I could've relaxed a little but sooner. Maybe I wouldn't have lost my baby due to all the stress. Hiding from the paparazzi, Selena being pregnant, Justin staying with Selena, them being engaged, the drama if they found out it was Justin's kid...everything. "So to make you feel better I got your favorite movie and snacks," Nick puts the movie in then sits in the chair next to me. In the first twenty minutes he shifts at least five times. "You can lay with me," I wince as I make room. "Are you sure?" He looks nervous, like he doesn't want to hurt me. "Get up here before I change my mind." He smiles then gets underneath the covers.

I wake up from the tv light. I blink a few times before realizing we both fell asleep. I smirk when I notice Nick is spooning me. I like this. I feel safe with him here. He's been through a lot with me, thick and thin, and he's never judged me once. He's always been by my side no matter what. I don't know what I'd do without him. "What are you thinking about?" I didn't realize he woke up. "Just that I don't know what I'd do without you," I squeezed my eyes in pain as I turned my body towards him. "For some reason you've always been there for me, even when I make bad decisions. I honestly don't know what I did to deserve you. I love you so much." I snuggled into him and he let out a small chuckle. "You know I'd do anything for you. You're my best friend. I don't think there's anything you could possibly do that'll change that." I yawned so he started to play with my hair. He's the only person that knows playing with my hair makes me fall asleep. He's the only one.