Imperfectly Wonderful

IV

"Logic will get you from A to B. Imagination will take you everywhere."

~Albert Einstein

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     Imagine a world without challenges, everything is served to you at your fingertips, and all you have to do is sit back and relax. Might be fascinating at the start? Yeah, it can be. Begins getting boring towards the end? Probably. Also, the enjoyment of discovering new things and start experimenting won't be there and there wouldn't be much fun.

      The lectures you hear about hard work, earning what you deserve and what you worked so hard for can become a little repetitive and frustrating. No one wants to hear that they are being lazy or constantly reminded that they are not being productive enough; not doing anything useful that will push you forward. For anyone like me, we like to take time in doing the things we want to do. We don't want to accomplish them overnight.

      This thought is what is keeping me motivated to do something about making sure my voice and my vision is heard to everyone. If I just sit there and do nothing, what is the point? Complaining won't take me anywhere. Might as well do something that will keep me busy and having fun.

      So this whole list can be considered as a challenge for me because it is similar to trying to solve a game, puzzle or riddle. I can either work our way around the solution or just look the solution up, which takes the fun out of it. It doesn't matter if the challenge is troublesome. Like doing something from one try and going onto the next one without giving it a second thought. I can never know if I don't keep around it more than once.

      But in this case, I am not sure how I will be able to look up the ending for this puzzle. Unless Google has some hidden answers.

      I mean at the end of it, I won't feel like I accomplished something, just getting the sense that I finished it without any of the feelings to it. Feeling that way won't help me feel any better so I better get something done and be proud of the conclusion I arrive to, no matter what it ends up looking. Trying to be less judgmental here.

      I think that is why it is called a challenge, my conscience fires back at me. As if I never knew that already.

      I don't know about some people, but I try to stay busy with any task, even if it is the most useless task. Complaining about being bored over and over again is horrible, trust me I've been there. And I doubt I am the only one. Sure, I can't actually complain but I can pace around the house till my parents tell me to get a life.

      Why does it feel like I am writing a persuasive essay? Because you are, my subconscious fires back again.

      Looking at the list I made, makes me feel like I entered a maze. I can't see which way is the exit; just hallways leading to unknown multiple destinations.

      I think I can cross poetry off the list. Drawing is the next stop on the map.

      Having an item in front of me does not sound all bad but does not sound like the best option to start with. I would want something that will come from me, not a copy of something. The outcome is not as important as much as the process; there will be no certain objective.

      I start drawing random lines.

      I don't know how much time has passed, but what I am looking at is intertwined curved lines splitting the image into parts. I want to think that there is some sort of meaning but then again I want to dig up meaning from anything. I don't think that is a good trait. So if the meaning exists or not, should not be a distraction.

      However, this mini-experiment is better than the still life one. What it makes me realize is that I enjoy doing my own creative thing than trying to recapture a 3D object or an image, anything that isn't my imagination, in front of me.

      This reminds me of Picasso and his shapes.

      The conclusion of the drawing process is not over but whatever I end up doing will serve purpose and meaning, if I add both two elements in the finished piece. I don't think it has to be valuable but it does not have to be useless either.