I want to write right now ,
I need to tell my keyboard how much sorrow is resideing in me
& how Anger is laying right next to her
I can’t write because im tierd
I’ve been depriving myself of sleep
because when my eyes are closed i feel so lost
so i’ll just close them for a little while and call it rest .
I want to divide time so i can slip into forever ,
or at least sleep a whole night
without a fis full of regrets
& thoughts that make me feel inadeqate to life
I want to write right now ,
About how i feel when im happy
but that part left me
I want to write about this mask i wear
not like makeup
but a cover up of the scars that linger on my body
I want to write about the exsitance of non exsitance
and the hardships of living in it
i’m crumbling
& no one is here to pick up the pieces
im steady stepping over whats left of me …
I want to write , but im tierd ,
so For now , I’ll lay across my bed sheets , half naked & pray about it
I’ll talk to my body , I’ll whisper to my soul & tell her to cry for me ..
I want to sleep peacefully , Just For tonight
