I wish it all away

(This is my first story so sorry about the grammar and the lack of good content)

Jay has had it. It was the third nightmare in a row and they were starting to get to him. They were always the same, with Nya dying and Nadakhan beating him. They told the other ninja what happened but he never said what happened to him alone with nadakhan and the pain he inflicted on him. He could still taste the blood and tears. He took his blue fleece blanket and trudged outside. He sat under a tree and looked up at the stars.

"You win nadakhan, I wish it all away" jay sobbed.

Although the events of their battle with nadakhan was erased, he still unfortunately remembered every detail.

"It's not fair. Why do I have to live with what happened? I need to blow off some steam before I explode. I've already bothered Nya twice" jay whispered.

He used his lightning to create a small fire. Although he talked to Nya about it sometimes, he never mentioned the brutal ways that he was tortured. Nadakhan was fed up with Jay's refusal and tried to get him drunk one night in the hopes he would slip up. After realizing it was not working, Nadakhan painfully chained his hands behind his back. He tried to break him by calling him weak. He cried every night in that cell scared and alone. The fear of his friends finding out what happened embarrassed him. He could still feel the pain. It bothered him that it theoretically never happened. He had to live with the guilt and shame. Even though jay knew it was not his fault, he still blamed himself for being weak and not fighting back.

"I didn't wish it away like the others and in return I get to remember everything. Seems fair huh" jay said sarcastically.

Jay was secretly on anti depressants without the knowledge of even Nya. They never helped so he always took more than he was supposed to. He was becoming dependent on the drug and jay knew if he didn't stop soon he would never be able to. The weather was getting worse with an approaching thunderstorm coming. Jay silently stood up and walked to the edge of the island.

"I wonder how far the drop is. Would it hurt or would it be painless?" Jay thought.

He hung one foot over the edge and suddenly felt a hand grab him arm. Alarmed he turned around and saw Kai, Cole, Zane, and Lloyd staring at him with tears in their eyes.

"What wrong with you jay? You could have hurt yourself" Cole screamed.

"Jay, please back away from the edge" Zane said quietly said.

Kai and Lloyd were just in shock. They looked hurt that he would do such a thing.

Feeling angry jay whipped around and said "what do you all care if I jump off? I'm the weakest member who is only known for being a joke. Everyone would be better off without me. My own parents didn't even want me".

Bitter memories of his father clouded his mind. Nadakhan actually made him believe that his father died. For weeks he has been trying to find out what happened to his parents but with no luck. He even considered asking master Wu for help. 

"Jay, you know that is not true. Your an integral part of our team. Without you, we would fall apart. Your parents love you and raised you as their own" Kai said.

"Everyone calls me a joke; the press, you guys, our enemies, and Nadakhan. Before he could take it back jay screamed "none of you were physically, mentally, and emotionally tortured"

As soon as he said those words, he instantly regretted it. Jay's eyes welled up with tears and he ran over the edge and created his dragon. He didn't even stop to see his friend's reactions.

"Please Jay, don't go, we want to talk to you" Lloyd cried.

Jay flew to the old monastery and collapsed. The storm was getting stronger and he knew soon his friends would not be able to find him. Lightning started to dance around his body as he cried into his blanket. He soon regretted his actions as the rain started to come down heavy. Suddenly he saw his friend's dragons flying swiftly towards him. Jay expected them to yell at him for running off but when they landed the first thing they did was hug him.

"Your our brother Jay. We love you and we want you to know that you can tell us anything. I'm sorry I yelled at you" Cole explained.

"Jay, out of all of us your the only one that can make us laugh or keep thinking positively in a bad situation" claimed Kai.

"Kai is right jay. You were the one who made me feel better when I found out I was a robot. You even cane up with the name nindroid" said Zane.

"We're sorry you had to go through what you did and we whenever you have a nightmare or your upset come talk to us. You didn't deserve what happened to you and I hope Nadakhan rots in hell for what he did" said Lloyd.

Overwhelmed by all his emotions Jay hugged his friends

"You guys are right. It's just so hard to deal with what happened when your one of the only people who remember what happened. I just wish it was all a bad dream" jay said weakly.

"We know that we can't ever imagine what you went through but we can try to move past it and help you to feel better. We can even look for the lamp so no one will ever find him again. You matter jay, to us, which is the only thing that matters" Cole said.

With the storm starting to get worse they decided now was the best time to leave. As Cole reaches for Jay's hand, he received a shock in return.

"Geez Jay that hurt. Your literally a lightning rod" cole laughed.

They climbed on their dragons and They took off. Jay lagged behind and when Zane started to slow down he saw Jay's face and continued on, realizing he needed a moment to himself.

"You didn't win Nadakhan. I still have my home, friends, and Nya. I will never forget what you did but I won't let you control my life" jay whispered.

When the ninja got back they all decided to sleep outside in a dog pile around Jay. For the first time since the incident , he knew that he wasn't alone. With that he closed his eyes and fell into a restful sleep.

Unbeknownst to the ninja, someone quietly slithered away.

***(there will be a part 2)