Today we leave for Japan. Our first concert was amazing. We got lots of ARMY love. Working Jimin however is ever as difficult as ever. The little freak was so technical, he wouldn't feel the music. He blamed me for him tripping halfway through the song. Okay? How is is my fault for him screwing up? I don't know but I decided we have to work twice as hard so he won't fuck up again.
And today I had a meeting with Joshua before we leave tonight. I dressed comfortably for the flight.
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I entered his off to find he had a suitcase. Are you fucking kidding me? No this was some joke.
"What the fuck Josh?" I snapped at him. His smile was evil and excited. God what a creeper. He was always like this. God why can't he just leave me alone?!
"BigHit insists I come along for a few concerts. I can't deny them it could be bad for business." He explained, you have to be joking.
"I own half the company! Why is me going not enough?!?" I shouted furiously. He ran to me putting a hand over my mouth. I grabbed his wrist and twisted his arm behind his back.
"What did I say last time you touched me?" I warned furious. I was ready to snap his arm but didn't.
"I'm sorry for touching you. It won't happen again." He lied, I knew him better. I pushed him away from me furious.
"Come if you want to. I don't care." I left him and went to a studio. But I did. He always did this to me. He always followed me around.
I threw my bag down, put on tunes and started freestyle dancing. I put on IDGAF by Dua Lipa, basically my theme song. (***The header song video***) I danced out my anger. I added a few martial arts moves into the dance. I just focused on the power of the songs lyrics.
What he did was so fresh still. Everytime he opens his mouth I want to punch him. I'm far past the stage of missing him. I could go the rest of existance without him, happy. But my anger is overwhelming. I mediate, dance, practice tae-kwon-do. Nothing helps the anger. And it doesn't help he is always trying to 'win' me back. Honestly, this song sang to me. My body moved on it own speaking to my hurt.
"Amazing." Jimin called to me from behind. I looked in the mirror seeing him standing at the door. Suga walked in before I had a chance to say anything.
"Man you had that pumping. We heard you from the other room." Suga laughed not noticing the tension.
I just looked at them my eyes holding the tears back. I hadn't realised I had been crying at all. Josh that ass, he always had this affect on me. Both Jimin and Suga noticed the tears and went silent. I put on a different song and started dancing again. I playing FFF by Bebe Rexha. I danced smoother this time trying to channel the anger a more positive way.
