Korean Heights ~BTS

Lunch in Japan

I stopped dancing to find fucking Jimin. Fucking Park Jimin, snuck in here to watch me dance. What is his problem? I think he knows I hate it when people eavesdrop.

"Damn it Jimin! How long have you been there?" I demanded to know but he just stared at me confused.
He turned off his camera and  came up to me. He put his hand on my cheek wiping my tears from my face. I don't know what I'm feeling but I didn't like it.

"Who hurt you so bad?" He asked his voice sad. Not in a pity way or mourning. It was more like he didn't understand why anyone would ever try and hurt me.
My heart skipped a beat when he touched me. I quickly recovered and took a step away from. He realized the look on my face and apologized.

"Ech... uh.. sorry." He bowed in respect. What is wrong with him? Why is he being nice to me?

"Have you eaten today?" He asked deadly serious. I hadn't even thought about it. I guess I didn't eat today. I just worked out for 5 hours with no food or water intake. I'll admit that is stupid of me.

"No, I haven't." I didn't look at him. I knew that look to well. Disappointment in me. No matter who it was from it always hurt.

"I'm hungry too. Wanna go eat?" He asked I thought about.
This boy hates me. Why does he care if I eat? Guess he must not want me to faint on stage. I only did that once years ago. It won't happen again, ever.

"Yeah I could eat." I admitted. He smiled, was it real?

He has never smiled like that with me. It was to adorable for me. Why is he so cruel?

**Time Skip** He took me to a small diner. I'd never seen something so cute. They had a kitten corner! He brought me to a kitten cafe! This was too awesome to deal with. He smiled at me as I noticed all the kittens. They were so cute.

We sat down and I saw potatoes on the menu. My true weakness mashed potatoes. How did he know I liked kittens and potatoes? I never liked him enough to tell him anything. Maybe one of the girls told him.

I ordered potatoes making Jimin smile. Oh my god stop looking me like that! It makes me feel weird. Why does it feel so weird?

Why does he care who hurt me? What is his deal? How can he hate me yet act like he cares about my wellbeing?!?

"Yah!" He got my attention as a little old woman handed me the cutest little kitten. Oh my fucking god I've died and gone to heaven.

"Thank you!" I spoke in Japanese. She bowed and Jimin handed her a tip.

I held the little baby named Neko. She was so cute. I felt all my anxiety and frustrations just float away.

"Why here of all places?" I finally asked. He shrugged.

"I like cats and potatoes. Why is it a problem?" He asked back to being a jerk. There he was that Jimin. I scowled at him annoyed.

"You know I have an eating disorder too." He spoke up after a few minutes of  me ignoring him for the kitten. I looked up at him in shock. Why would he say that?

"I don't have an eating disorder." I argued but he shook his head.

"I'm not stupid y/n. I know what anorexia is. I have it don't try and play me." He spoke soft yet nasty. I never implied he was stupid or anything. Why the shoulder.

"You're too stressed. The kittens always helped me. Puppies help too. Just being loved unconditionally by an animal helps a lot. Plus i love potatoes. They can be made so many ways." He went on smiling like a fool. I didn't know wether to be angry or thankful.

"I use to passout every practice. I ate maybe once ever 5/6 days if that much. One time I went 11 days no food and only ate because Taehyung was crying. I understand stress just as much as you. I'm in a boyband and kpop one too." He continued to say. I didnt want to understand or relate to this asshole. He hates me. I know he hates me, right?

"I'm sorry. Yes I used to be anorexic. But I'm fine. I eat plenty of food. Just smaller portions. It's a diet." I reasoned but he looked more upset.

"Please just keep up your strength. No one here wants to see you get sick." He brushed it off. I agreed and ate my food.  We ate in silence before I got a call from Josh. I answered it annoyed.

"What?" I snapped at him. I heard him laugh. His laugh used to be so warming now it just gave me chills.

"We have practice. Don't you remember?" He asked and no I don't remember. Did he just not tell me? What a dick! He is trying to make me a fool.

"Seriously you scheduled a fucking practice without telling me or Jimin!" I yelled making the kitten agitated.

"Oh didn't I let you know? Darn guess you'll just be late." He mocked me I waved to the lady who brought the kitten and handed Neko to her. I stood up leaving money on the table. I grabbed Jimin and rushed to the studio. While still talking to my asshole of an ex.

"I hate you so fucking much." I snapped at Joshua. He laughed not believing me. I could kill him right now. I had barely gotten to eat too. What a fucking cock jerk!

I hung up on him as we arrived to the studio. Jimin was still confused like the stupid little monkey he was. We went into the room to find everyone waiting.

"Sorry we are late fucking Josh just now  told us there was even a fucking practice. I wanted to give everyone a day to rest before two straight days of concerts. But what do I know?" I argued as we all got into place.

Josh started the music and we went through each song. Everything was fine until Josh decided to show everyone how to do it right. With me as a helper! Are you fucking joking me? Him I have to let him touch me! This is sick even for him using teaching as a way to touch me again.

He put his hands on my hips. I closed my eyes. His hands on me were last thing I wanted. He brushed his right hand down to my knee. While moving his left hand up my body provocatively. I felt sick, I definitely wanted to puke all over him. I tried to ignore the clear disgust and put my whole soul into the dance. I did it perfect not showing at least obviously how clearly uncomfortable I was. I guess Jimin, Suga, Namjoon and my girls noticed. Because they looked angry. They clapped for us still. Josh put his mouth to my ear.

"Even they love us." He whispered like a snake. My skin crawled, this is getting really bad real quick.