CHAPTER 3 telling the guys
September 27
Alexis:
Zach new I used to cut myself but since him and I started dating I stopped cutting because I am happy. Now that I found out I’m pregnant the stress has been to much to handel and I started cutting again.
Hey baby lets go out to dinner tonight I asked Zach while at lunch.
All you think about now it food. He nudged me jokingly.
No I don’t!!!
I’m just messing with you but yes I would love to go out with you. Hey if you don’t mind me asking how come you’re wearing a long sleeved shirt it like 100 degrees outside?
No reason I'm just cold then he saw the cuts because my sleeve slid up.
Babe I thought u stopped, is everything ok at home?
Yes everything is fine I will tell you about it at dinner tonight.
Ok is there anywhere special you want to go?
Nope where ever is fine I have to go I need to talk to Sam.
Samantha Garcia has been my best friend since we were in 3rd grade and I moved here to cali. There is one thing that me and Sam are now going to have in common being teen moms. When Samantha was a freshman last year she got pregnant and her parents sent her to Iowa to live with her grandparents. I’m one of the few people who knew why she left Cali last year she is now back and she has the cutest little girl he name is Krista. And I was now I was thinking how to tell my best friend I'm pregnant. But I will have to tell her after I tell Zach.
Ok I love you babe see you tonight.
Later that night Zach picked me up I was going to tell him that I was about 1 month or somewhere around there.
We had just sat down at this really nice restaurant and I was going to tell him before I lost the courage to do so.
Hey Zach I have something to tell you.
Ok what is it baby?
Funny you say that umm I don’t know any easy way to put this but I’m pregnant (wow that just spilled out I hadn’t planned for it to come out like that but now its out) I found out about a week ago I’m sorry I didn’t say anything to you when I found out please don’t be mad at me. I blurted this all out in one breath.
For a second he just stared at me then he looked really disappointed and asked if that’s why I started cutting again.
I started to cry, yes I said barely above a whisper I was too scared to tell you and it was really just getting to me and I didn’t know how to handle it I'm sorry I'm so sorry.
He looked shocked and didn’t say anything for what seemed like forever.
What he said, I should be the one saying sorry I put you in the position that you felt you had to cut and couldn’t come to me now iv caused you more harm. You know you could have come to me when you first found out.
No you didn’t make me cut I'm sorry its ok if you don’t want to be with me anymore I will understand you probably think I'm some crazy suicidal person for cutting instead of telling you .
No I don’t think that, I’m confused and in shock right now, I won’t leave you I know that but we have a lot to talk about but for right now I think we should go. you don’t look so great you look kind of tired and worn-out and I think you need some sleep.
Ok you can take me home if you would like but please don’t leave me alone my parents are not home and I really don’t want to be alone.
No problem I will come stay the night with you. He grabbed my hand a kissed my forehead I really loved when he did that.
