"Ooh I've gotta be out my mind
To think it's gonna work this time
A part of me wants to leave
But the other side still believes
And it kills me to know how much
I really love you
So much I wanna oh ho to you ho ho
And it kills me (kills me)
To know how much
I really love you (how much, how much I love you)
So much I wanna oh ho to you ho ho."
Melanie Fiona "It Kills Me"Ashanti
"Alright, I'll see you later." I sighed as I ended my phone call with August and laid back on my messy bed. To be honest, it's not disorganized because there are clothes or snacks on it. I just hate fixing the bed in the morning and have to move the comforter and pillows at night. It breaks my heart a little since it looks so beautiful.
Anyway, I haven't completely forgiven August. I've been thinking about our relationship these past few days; whether I should stay with him or find someone better. People always say once a cheater, always a cheater, but I don't think that's for everybody.
Lust conquered him at his moment of weakness and at least he told me his wrongs the next day. If I wanted a perfect man, I would be searching every inch of this earth for the rest of my life. August isn't a bad person; the entire time we've been together, he's been amazing except for the few times of him being jealous, but that's not really a problem. It just shows that he cares.
If God can forgive a sinner, why can't I forgive August for making a mistake? However, he has to earn my trust before I can say we're good.
He has one more chance. If he fucks up again, I'm cutting him off and beating the hell out of that b*tch he slept with or even kissed.
So this morning, Auggie sent me photos of him blocking Miracle on all his social media platforms and deleting her phone number.
Wow! I was so impressed that he knew how to use his phone.
Haha! I'm terrible. I mean, that's a first step, but that girl can find other ways to see him. August simply needs to know how to comport himself around her. I told him that he's not putting his lips on mine until he gets tested. I'm not saying he has something, but a girl who can sleep with a taken man can sleep with anyone. He practically begged me to go out for lunch at 2 today. Like did I tell him that I was hungry or couldn't afford to pay for my food?
"Queen! Are you ready?" Teyana yelled.
"Yeah. Let's go." I grabbed my bag, keys, and phone. When I walked out of the room, I saw her taking selfies and checking herself out in the hallway mirror.
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Don't Matter
FanfictionWith his demanding music career and a family that depends on him, August is always on the grind. He's always on the road, making money and gaining fame. Find out how August learns about the things that don't matter when it comes to his happiness and...