Camila sat in her hotel room. It was 1:00 p.m. and she had to meet Lauren in an hour. She was scared, what if she hated her? What if she doesnt show? What if she does show?
_Do you miss me?_
Camila couldn't stand being without Lauren. She brought light into her worst days.
_Am I crazy?_
Camilas head is pounding. Shes seeing things that arent there. Hearing things that arent there. She's slowly losing her mind without Lauren.
_Am I losing hold of your love , baby?_
She couldn't help but think that Lauren hates her. She hurt her too many times to count. Camila should've been better.
_Its either you want me , or you dont_
Maybe Lauren doesn't love her anymore. Maybe she found someone new that can treat her better.
_I need to know_
Camila could talk to her. Its only 1:30. She's just too scared.
_Who are you today?_
Lauren has undoubtfully changed without Camila. There's no way she can't. One day Camilas here, the next shes not.
_Will you be the sun, or the pouring rain?_
Camila wonders how her and Laurens relationship would change. What if they break up? What would happen to the band?
_Who are you tomorrow?_
If they make up, would everything be the same tomorrow? What if they never talk again?
_Will you make me smile?_
When Camila lets her mind wander she thinks of Laurens laugh. She loves the way she burst out in laughter when she tells a joke.
_Or just bring me sorrow?_
She didn't know people could be as sad as she is right now. Tears sting her eyes and they run down her pale, sunken face. Camila sniffles and wipes her nose.
_Who are you gonna be when i'm lost and i'm scared?_
Camila didn't know where to go, or where she was. Its terrifying to be this far away from what she knows.
_Who are you gonna be when there's nobody there?_
Shes all alone. No one to save her from drowning in her tears. Camila cant even say a word, her voice so sore and worn out from screaming and crying for hours.
_Who are you today?_
Camila hasnt talked to Lauren in a couple weeks now. She hasn't talked to anyone really, except the people at the front desk and room service. She wonders hows she's doing. She misses her, but cant bare to face her.
_Cause i am still the same._
Camila has changed. But Lauren doesnt know that. One day she will. When they meet again.
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Goodbye - Camren
Fanfic"goodbye lauren . maybe ill see you around ." warning : mention & use of self harm .
