Mostly Him

10

I knew I could never replace anyone for you.

I still tried, and I don't know why.

I guess I'm a hopeless romantic, or just hopeless in general.

What sucks is I don't think I'll ever stop having feelings for you.

And I know I shouldn't be saying any of this to you, but I don't have a reason not to.

I fell so hard for you, even though I knew you still loved her.

It brings me to tears writing this out.

It tears me apart knowing I'll always love you.

I just hope I'm not so inconsequential that I slip from your mind.

One day, I was hoping to be yours.

But that hope was dead before it even began.

You loved her, you liked the idea of me.

I could never compete.

I had no right to be jealous, you were never mine.

Yet every time you may be hurt or something could hurt you, I'd try and stop it.

I'd take a bullet for you.

I'd take all of your pain and anxiety and sadness.

I'd cripple myself with every pain you feel so you could move forward.

So you could love again.

Even if I died from the pain, it would be worth it to know you were happy.