Promise

Nineteen

I woke up in Harry's arms still. It was weird, and probably wrong. But right now it feels good to feel like someone cares about you. It feels good thinking that not everyone is trying to do harm to me. And I know if people were to listen to my situation, and know that right now I'm cuddled up to my kidnapper, they would probably think I am crazy but I don't care. 

"Good morning Rosalee, how do you feel?" Harry said while pushing the hair out of my face. He was showing me that godly smile of his. 

"I don't know... I was hoping that last night was just a bad dream but it wasn't was it?"

"No, but I'm going to do everything I can to make you feel better okay?" I just nodded my head not feeling like talking about it anymore. He left a gentle kiss to my forehead before he made his way out of the bed. I shouldn't have let that happen, this is wrong.

"I have a little bit of work to do today, and then we are going to the club with the guys tonight. I'll come and check on you though throughout the day, is that okay?"

"Can you have Louis bring Ellie? I always feel so lonely here." I asked Harry before he left the room. 

"Yes baby, but you know you can always come find me if you need me." He kissed my forehead one more time before he left the room. 

Okay, what he just said was a big lie. He may not see it, but last time he found me in his office he wanted to kill me. So there is no way he would let me in there with him. And why is he calling me baby? I hope I'm not giving him the wrong idea, I can't like him. Gosh, why am I so stupid.

I pushed myself out of bed and towards the shower. I turned on the water before stripping down my clothes and getting in. I felt the hot water droplets falling own my body, mixing with the tears falling from my eyes. 

I have never felt so alone, so hurt. How could your own family plan on selling you off to some guy? Maybe Harry is lying, maybe my family isn't doing that. I mean they are my family, they can't do that, can they? 

I don't even know anymore. I don't know anything, I'm lost. 

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"Ellie, I don't want to go. Can't I just stay here while you all go out?" I asked Ellie as she curled my hair. We were getting ready to go out tonight, and I really don't want to go anywhere with anyone. 

"No, Rosalee! You need to get out of the house, it will be good for you to forget about all of the bad things for a night. And besides that, you know Harry will not leave you here alone." 

"It isn't fun, we just sit there and listen to them talk. And last time some weird guy basically raped me!" I don't know why everyone defends Harry.

"But Harry is not going to let that happen again, he'll protect you." 

"Oh my God, why does everyone keep telling me that? Harry isn't a good person, he can't be! None of you can be good people! My family, they are good people. They wouldn't do this, you are all just lying to me. This isn't true, you all are trying to brainwash me!" I spoke the words so quickly that I ran out of breath. 

"Calm down Rosalee, it's okay. I know this is hard for you, but we are not lying. We are looking out for you, especially Harry. He really cares about you, Louis always tells me about how much he talks about you." 

I stood up and walked  out of Harry's bathroom, and made my way back to my room. I made sure to lock the door behind me, before making my way to the window. 

Why would Harry care about me? I feel like an idiot. One minute I'm being used as a pawn, and the next minute I am a charity case. I'm trying so hard to tell myself that Harry is lying to me. I don't want to believe him, I want to believe that my family is out there looking for me. But no matter how hard I try to feel that way, something inside of me is telling me to think otherwise.