and i hate you, because i love you

princess.

i lie there with my chest feeling there is a hundred pounds crashing on it with every breath.
i feel a sharp pain in my abdomen and look down to see my shirt cut open completely exposing my stomach and the flesh wound. " Where the fuck is Bellamy?" i breathes out as i sat up to see a couple of the 100 standing around looking at me with blank faces.
" well? somebody answer me "
my voice was stern as i spoke, i was sure to not show my pain, and just as i finished my sentence i see the freckled man walk through the drapes covering the drop ship.
" Bellamy, what the hell happened out there, you were supposed to be keeping watch, where's fin? he was with us wasn't he, where is he Bellamy!" i yelled out in a panic, i was certainly angry with Bellamy for not watching my back but i was more concerned for the where abouts of my best-friend. Bellamy scratched the back of his neck while take a few steps towards me.
" look, clarke. i got distracted, raven and i, well we were arguing and i just couldn't get her stupid voice out of my head i thought i could go for a walk and when i came back, there you were on the ground."
bellamy spoke softly, with guilt in his voice he couldn't possibly look at me while he spoke. his words burned a fire of anger inside of me.
" so i was left unguarded while trying to find shit to help your stupid ego and that's your reasoning " i never felt so much anger inside of me i tried standing up and as soon as i did, i fell right back.

i felt large arms wrap behind my back and underneath my legs bringing me up before i could hit the ground i looked up to see the only face i possibly wanted to see.
fins.

he leaned down and kissed my forehead as my eyes fluttered.
" sleep princess, i got it under control."
his words felt like the only cure i needed and with that, i fell asleep in her arms.

(bellamy pov)

i watched as fin laid the girl i was desperately trying to get over on the hammock.
How could i have possibly let my anger step in the way of my duty of protecting her.
i was so upset with myself.
more so upset with the fact that fin had her head over heels for him.
nobody knows what i know about him. she wouldn't love him if she knew but i could never hurt her like that.
" Bellamy "
" Bellamy "
i got shook to reality when murphy tapped onto my shoulder.
" what " i spat turning around with my lips in a tight line.
" look man, if she doesn't make it through the night we can't keep wasting supplies on her "
i was suddenly angered by his remark, without hesitating i turned around and pushed him back against the nearest wall.
" clarke will receive any medical attention she needs and will be given as much medical supplies as possible "
murphy rolled his eyes
" are we clear?"
he nodded before brushing me off and walking away.

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y'all i write this shit on my phone and i honestly haven't edited since yenno TWENTY FIFTEEN
but i hope y'all like this edit. i will update as much as possible.