The Fosters Callie Finds Love

Chapter 20

CALLIE

After my mom found me sobbing uncontrollably on the ground. She helped me up and I immediately became weak in the knees. My mom had to hold me up so I wouldn't fall. No matter how much I tried to stand up I couldn't remember how to stand up. I fell in my mothers arms and she grabbed me by my knees and picked me up and carried me outside to the car. Lena got in the drivers seat and Stef got in the back with me as I laid in her lap like a baby would. When we got home she helped me out the car and laid me down in my bed and she laid right next to me and I fell asleep in her eyes. Once I woke up Stef was no longer in my bed. I looked around and Mariana wasn't even in the room. The room was dark. I grabbed my cell phone and the time read 11:00pm. I noticed my lock screen and it was picture of Sunny and I. I was sitting on the porch and she had her arms wrapped around my neck from behind. Both of us were grinning hard. I loved seeing her smile, her smile always brightened the room and made me melt inside. I laid back on my bed and just stared at my lock screen. I ran my finger over her face. I felt more tears trickle down my face. I opened my phone and went to my photos. I scrolled to where Sunny and I took our first selfies. We were just being silly and had so much fun taking those pictures. I never realized how much I loved her. I so wished that right now we could just cuddle and say fuck it to the cancer that took her life so young. I just laid down on my bed and cried in my pillow. I heard a knock on my door and in came Stef holding out a bowl of ice cream. "Sweets," Stef said sitting next to me. I just looked at her and didn't say anything. "I brought you some ice cream, I know it isn't healthy, but mama and I are letting it slide tonight," she said rubbing my hair. "I'm not hungry," I mumbled to her. "Ok, you have to eat something, even if it is this bowl of ice cream that is melting away," she said to me eating some of the ice cream herself. "I said I'm not hungry," I said to her. "Ok, well you have to eat something soon, you haven't ate in hours." "No, thanks." "You feeling ok," she said rubbing my hair back and forth. "Take a wild guess," I said to her as sarcastic as I can get. "I know sweets, but you can't stay up here and sulk all day, when my dad died, that is all that I wanted to do, but I knew it wasn't possible and I knew my dad wouldn't of wanted me to do that, so I understand how you feel, but acting all depressed isn't going to help anything." "You have no idea how I feel, I lost the love of my life, the one person I felt like who really loved me. She is gone and I can no longer see her anymore. I loved her so much," I said to Stef crying more than hysterical. "Sweetie, I know how much you two loved each other I really do," she said to me wiping the tears from my eyes. "I miss her so much already, why did she have to go. It isn't fair. Everyone I love I lose," I said to my mom. She was crying too and I just collapsed in her arms.

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The next morning I woke up, Mariana was still not in the room and the house seemed to quiet. I got up and stretched and went to the bathroom. I walked in the bathroom and looked at myself in the mirror and I looked a mess. My hair was uncombed and all over the place, my eyes were red and blotchy, my face was covered with snot and my shirt was soaked. I decided to take off all my clothes and take a shower. When I got in, the shower helped me calm my nerves down a little bit. The hot water felt so good up against my skin. Even though Sunny was all in my thoughts the hot water helped me relax a little. After I got out the shower I got dressed in a sweatshirt and a pair of sweatpants. I pinned my wet hair and decided to let it air dry. I walked downstairs and Stef and Lena were sitting on the couch watching TV. I guess they decided not to go to work today. "Why aren't you guys at work," I asked them. "We just decided to stay home today, we wanted to be here when you woke up, how are you feeling though sweets," Stef asked me. "Better than to be expected, this all seems so unreal to me," I said sitting down on the chair pinning my knees up to my chin. "We know love, your just grieving and your mom and I are going to give you the space to let you grieve, but you need to eat something and take care of your health first," Lena said to me and I nodded my head at her. "I just wish she was here on earth with me. I know she will always be a part of my heart and memories but it still feels unreal. She was everything to me and without her here it just seems impossible to move on. But one good thing is that this time I got to kiss her goodbye," I said to my moms and I can see the sympathy in there eyes. "Well, Sunny's mom called earlier and the day of the funeral is Tuesday at noon. There will be a repass after. She invited us to come, but the funeral will be all said in spanish since majority of her family does not speak english. Also she wants you to speak about her during the family and friends reflections part of the service, they will have a translator there, she said it is up too you, but she knows that her daughter would love if you spoke at her funeral." "Um, I have to think about it, but I do want to be there even though we aren't going to understand a word they are saying," I said to my moms. "Well Mariana and Jesus will be there to help us out, but all of us will be there ok, and it is your decision to speak at her funeral. I nodded my head at them and walked in the kitchen. I grabbed a yogurt out the fridge and sat at the table and just sat there for a moment staring at the yogurt. I looked back up and I swore with my eyes I saw Sunny sitting across from me. I opened and closed my eyes and she was still there. She reached out her hand and I grabbed it. I felt her hand actually touch mines. I smiled at her and she smiled at me touching my hand. Then I looked back up and she was gone.