17 and pregnant

Chapter 7

Today's the day. Hunter and I are going to go and see the baby for the first time.

When we got in the hospital, Hunter held my hand. His palms were sweaty, he's nervous.. I mean, of course I understand.. I'm nervous too, it's my child and it's the first time I am going to see it!

When Hunter was driving, we were listening to some music. A song about self harm came on.. This is the most awkward moment I have ever had with him.

He turned the radio off and we sat in silence for a few minutes.

"Hunter..."

"What. How our we supposed to do this, with you hurting yourself? You cannot take the chance of hurting our baby. You and the baby mean so fucking much to me." He paused. He started to tear up, I could hear it in his voice.. "Aria, I am not trying to be a dick. I just cannot lose you two. You mean the world to me. I love you more than words can explain. If I ever lost you, or that baby, I dont know what I would do! "

At this point, tears were streaming down my face. I knew he was right. I cannot keep doing this to myself, whether it was hurting the baby or not..

"Hunter, I am so sorry. I will try really hard not to, its going to be easier now that I am with you all of the time.. I have been doing it for so long though, it has been the only way I have been able to cope with things."

"I know, but you have to stop. It is for the best, and you know it."

And yeah, I did know it, but he does not understand how hard it is..

He grabbed my hand, and turned on the music again. When we got to the hospital and he parked the car. We sat in there for a minute in silence and he said "Aria, I love you. I know I say it a lot, but you really need to understand that I would do anything to help and protect you.."

" I love you too, babe."

He wiped the wetness of my face off with his sweatshirt, smiled and kissed me. Long, and hard.

I pulled away and smiled. " Lets go see our baby!"

He pulled the keys out of the ignition and we both got out of the car. He waited for me to walk by him, and he grabbed my hand. We were walking into the hospital and for the first time in a long time, I finally felt happy.