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chapter 10

"Have you asked Ethan to the dance yet?" I questioned Bianca

"No I was going to do it today"

"Well you better hurry before some other girl asks him" I tease.
She slaps my arm and I make a face at her.  Just as i'm about to tease her again when a tray appears next to me and someone sits down.

" um excuse me "I begin sassily when he turns and smirk at me

"Yes did you need something" he smiles innocently

"What" I say dumbfounded. I am horrible in these situations. I don't want to be rude but I don't want him next to me either.

"Um can you find a different spot?" I said scrunching my eyebrows.

"Why" he asks simply. Ugh this boy is getting on my nerves. 

"wait a minute I know you" Bianca butts in. "you are one of Ethan's friends who stole my popcorn and almost got punched my Ethan because he thought you were flirting or something."

"Yup that would be me" He says proudly

"ok so why are you here?" I ask

"All my friends are gone so i thought i would get some new friends" He joked

" whatever. Wait what's your name?" I question

"The great and all powerful Luke Colburn. The best friend of Ethan and if you break his heart" he looks pointedly at Bianca.  "I am coming after you. Oh wait I am also the best friend of Alex" he starts and I pat his arm and say.

"Yeah yeah you'll hunt me down I got it. But what if he breaks my heart?" I fire back

"Um well I will have a little chat with him" he states before grinning again. "You seem nice and I think he already likes you" he winks and I shrink down which is nearly impossible to do In these seats.

"So have you asked Ethan to the dance yet?" He asks Bianca

"No but I was going to today but he isn't here, I guess I'll text him later"

"And you" he looks at me

"I asked him already. Don't you guys ever talk"

"Of course we do. I like being the inside man. Now I know you are asking him today" he smirks at Bianca

"Note to self don't say anything important around you" I say shoving some salad in my mouth.

He snickers "awe common how else am I supposed to know anything"

Me and bianca look at each other and smirk at him.

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"So how was school?" My mom asks the typical  mom question.

"Good" I say to avoid further questions. Me and my whole family is eating dinner right now.

We family begins talking  about how there day was and funny little stories. I laugh when necessary but all I want to do is go to my room and sleep. During dinner I always start feeling depressed. If I am in a crowd of friends I am happy.

"What" did someone say my name?

"I saw your boyfriend at target today" Aria said looking to see my reaction

"Oh which one? My secret one or the other one?" I ask blankly. My family stares at me

"Oops sorry I'm guessing it was the other one" I say continuing the charade.

"It was Alex your babysitting boyfriend" she smirks

"Oooh Alex" my siblings all start oohing and making kissy faces.

"Shut up you know I don't have a boyfriend. Well except for my secret one but you will never know who he is" I smirk

"Who Is this Alex you have been hanging out with?" My dad asks. Uh oh

"Oh just a neighbor of aunt hale he helps me babysit and goes to my school. So mark how was school today" I say using a weak attempt to change the subject. My dad glares at me.

"Have I met him? Is he a good kid? " my dad questions

"No u haven't met him Yes dad. Don't worry we are just friends" ugh why can't aria just keep her mouth shut.

"Yeah well that's how it always starts"

"Daaaad"

"OK OK I just don't want you hanging out with any of those bad boys OK. They are trouble no matter how cool they seem."

"Oh mygosh dad. I'm fine. And you guys blame all the boys I breath next to. How do you know I'm not a bad girl? As the song goes 'good girls are bad girls who having been caught' " I smirk. I love that song.

*****

Later in bed when I am trying to do some homework before dance. I groan and lay down on my side loosing energy to do anything except lay here and zone off. I put my headphones on and turn on my music.

I don't even know what I am doing with my life. Like what am I going to do after collage? Be a Secretary? Or start my own business?

Doubts swirled in my mind and eventually I just stopped thinking about anything at all. By now I am used to these thoughts and doubts.

"Bree are you ready for dance?" Mark says popping his head into my room. I really don't want to go but I know it helps me. I don't feel so depressed after. I am always in a better mood so I grab my dance bag and go change into leggings and a tank.

Once we get there I toss my bag to the side and go to a corner to stretch alone. Blink back tears. I hate being alone. I hate how down it makes me. All the girls in my class are friends and I just don't fit in. I never have fit in anywhere. I always let people down. No one needs me.

"OK are you all done stretching? Let's run over the dance. " my teacher calls. I stand up and go to my place to begin the dance.

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I stare out at the moon. It is so pretty. I have always loved the moon whenever I come home from dance it is out and I stare in wonder out the window. I feel so much better after dancing but I know I feel like that again soon but right now I feel calm and peaceful.

*****A/N*****

Hey guys! This is like such a deep chapter and I relate to this so much. I dance and it helps me through all the struggles life throws your way. Dance and music are the best!!

Yay hope you like it!