love me already- IAH

four

"worthless." he spat in my face

"please! stop!- i'm sorry i can't-" he cut me off with a hard smack across the face

i whimpered, my hand rose to my cheek, burning, hotter than fire

 tears were streaming down my face

"gay" 

i gulped. it's not the fact that it wasn't true that sent shivers down my spine, but the terrible, homophobic way, he was using it

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eventually, i found myself staring into jonathan's beautiful, dark brown eyes.

he awkwardly broke the silence with a weird cough.

"right- sorry" i looked away, blushing a bit

"i'm not really sure where room 231 is- would you mind showing me after we eat?" he asked, a smile was present on his lips

"s-sure. i think i have that class next" i nodded, opening my brown bag i packed for lunch

i pulled out an apple and rubbed my sleeve over it, observing a small bruise on it. i took a small bite.

"did you pack a lunch?" i asked with a soft voice.

"no- i don't really- eat lunch, i guess" he sighed

"oh. do you want my sandwich? i don't think i'll be hungry enough to eat it. only i-if you want it. it's ham and cheese-" i offered, gently taking it out of the bag

"thank you so much" he smiled, blushing a bit 

i handed it over to him, but it was smacked out of my hand

"sherwin." 

i turned around and looked behind me. it was a senior. he was on the football team. he was wearing a yellow and royal blue varsity jacket, which all of the players had. 

all of them hated me. and i mean it. all of them

why is he here?  i thought to myself

"3:30. behind the school. we need to talk"

i shuddered. his voice was strong, harsh. i tucked an orange curl behind my ear and nodded, by body shaking

i was scared. what did he want from me?

a/n: i'm really sorry for not updating! i had been hospitalized for a while. and still am. 

just a fact: i would never abandon my books. i may put them on hold if i need to, but they will never be left alone

i hope you enjoyed this chapter! next one coming soon :)