BTS 8th Member

Insecure

We had just woken up and I was looking through social media. I saw that a lot of the other idol girls were really skinny. I got tired of looking at it and turned my phone off.

"Breakfast is ready!" Jin yelled from the kitchen.

We all walked out. "I'm just gonna head in for practice early. I'm not really hungry much." I say.

They all nodded. I gathered my stuff and went to the studio. I went up to the mirrors and practiced and practiced. I started to feel a little hungry but shrugged it off. I took a small break and sat in front of the mirror cross crossed.

"Why am I like this?" I ask myself.

I sat there looking at myself, judging myself. I got back up and practiced again. I checked the time and saw the guys should be here soon. So I just waited and sat back in front of the mirror again waiting.

Jin's POV

We were almost at the building and Brittany seemed off this morning. She never skips breakfast. Even if she isn't that hungry. I know something has to be wrong and I'm sure Namjoon knows it too since he knowledge everything.

We eventually made it to the building and walked into the practice room. There we saw Brittany sitting in front of the mirror. She hasn't noticed us yet.

"Do you guys think I'm chubby? Or overweight?" Brittany suddenly asked.

I knew it was something like this. Awhile back when she had to go to the doctors for her back they took a test type thing and asked her questions. One was how her self-esteem was. She replied with lower than average.

"No. Your perfect the way you are." Yoongi said.

"Your just saying that to be nice." She answered back.

"Brittany you're fine. If you can't see that them we'll have to prove to you that you're perfect." Namjoon says.

"All the other female idols are skinny. Why can't I be skinny like them?" She replies back. "They all weigh like 100 pounds. I weigh way more than that."

By this point we were all sitting by her. "But it doesn't show. You keep your weight at the average area because you don't care what people think." I say.

"I thought I didn't care much. Now I do. Can we just practice now?"

Brittany's POV

I hate how insecure I am. I seem like I don't care what people think, but deep down I do. We all got up and PD-Nim put old songs on for review. I gave it my all. I felt a little light headed but pulled through.

Eventually we got to have our break. Jimin came up to me and sat beside me. "Brittany you don't need to be skinny to look pretty. If you ever feel like you need someone to talk to I'm here for you. Remember that ok?"

"I will. Thanks Jimin." I say and give him a hug.

Our break ended and we went back to practicing. I felt a little better. But I know in time my insecurities will come back and break me back down. This is just a minor one. I have many other ones too that are some major ones. But for, I'm keeping those aside. Maybe when we get home I can talk to Jimin about my problems. He always listens to what we have to say.

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This one got personal to me. I do have many insecurities and I do have a lower than average self-esteem. If you ever feel done talk to me or talk to a family member and/or close friend. You aren't alone.

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