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Hypopituitarism

Hypopituitarism: the rare disease to where one cannot feel love.

I read that sentence over and over in my head while leaving the doctors room. I knew I never had a crush but I thought it was normal. That I didn't like anybody in that sort of way. But, now I know why I never did. I look up and see Jin who brought me here.

"What's with the paper?" He asked pointing at it.

"I would like to tell everyone at the same time with what it is." I reply.

He just nods. I think back to memories that we all shared. I cherished them. I always said to the guys that I loved them but, now that's all a lie. I never truly knew what love was. Or what it felt like.

"We made it back." Jin says snapping me out of my thoughts.

We get out of the car and walk into the dorm. All the guys were in the living room waiting. When the door closed all eyes were on me and Jin.

"How'd it go?" Namjoon asked looking up from his book.

"I, uh, have some news to share. It's really important." I say thinking of a way to say it.

"Everything ok?" Hoseok asks concerned.

"Of course. Everything is fine. It's just that the doctor diagnosed me with Hypopituitarism." I reply.

"What's that mean?" Taehyung asked.

"It's a rare disease that a person who has it cannot feel love." I answer. "So all the times I said that I loved you guys was a lie. I truly don't know what love is."

"Let me ask you something." Yoongi starts. "Do you worry about us?" I nod. "Do you admire us?" I nod once again. "Do you care for us? Do you enjoy being around us? Do you feel happy to be around us?" I nod for all of those. "That's love, Brittany. No doctor can say you can't feel love when you feel that way around us." He finishes.

"When you were younger you might not have felt love. But that doesn't define you now." Jungkook adds.

"But its a disease. It's not just gonna randomly go away." I retort.

"I think it did. You just haven't found the right people to prove it did." Jimin jumps in.

"When we left I thought something bad happened. I was so worried. But we all know that the diagnoses is now wrong and that you can in fact feel love. And no one is gonna change that fact." Jin said.

I look around at the seven men. They were right. A doctor doesn't decide how I am just from something that was true years ago. I'm a different person now. And no one can change that. I smiled at all of them and bring them into a hug.

"Thanks guys. I truly do love you guys. And no one can say I don't." I say.

They all hug back. We broke apart, got ice cream, and watched movies all night. This is why I enjoy being around them.