FEELS •shawn mendes•

feels •shawn mendes• ch. 14

I don't know what just came out of my mouth but it confused shawn, that's for sure.

Shawn looks at me and his mouth falls open a little bit.

"Aubrey, what?" He stutters a little, and i immediately blush.

"Nevermind. Forget I said anything." I rush, trying to walk out his bedroom door.

"No, I don't want to forget." Shawn says, and I stop in my tracks.

"What?" I ask.

"What you want, I want it too. I just didn't think you would ever say it. When we first made the deal I wasn't expecting anything to come out of it. But around the time we weren't even talking I began to realize what I really feel for you, but I didn't do anything because I was sure you wouldn't feel the same way." Shawn says quickly, holding my hands in his.

"So what are you saying..." I can't believe what I'm hearing from him.

"I'm saying I want it. I want us. More than anything." He explains, and I hug him tightly.

"So how are we going to be an 'us' if no one can know about us?" I ask him, and he sighs.

"We can figure that out later. For now we can just be us, shawn and Aubrey, behind closed doors." Shawn kisses the top of my head and let's me go.

"Want me to drive you home?" He asks, and I realize I didn't bring my car to school today.

"You're gonna have to."

He laughs and we walk to his car. We listen to music on the way back to my house and when I get out, he squeezes my leg and says,

"Bye babe. I'll pick you up tomorrow morning."

I blush and nod.

If this is what it's like dating shawn, I'm here for it. 

When I walk into my house, my little sister Becca is sitting on the couch glaring at me. She's 13 and such a snitch.

"Who was that boy?" She raises her eyebrows.

"His names shawn." I tell her smugly.

"I'm telling mom that you're hanging around a boy." She smirks at me, and I nearly laugh.

"Hate to break it to you but she already knows about him, Rebecca." I purposely call her Rebecca because I know she hates it.

"Don't call me Rebecca!" She glares at me, and I roll my eyes as I walk upstairs.

The rest of the night I talk to friends and do homework, and by the time it's 10 pm I'm exhausted.

I'm getting ready for bed when I get a FaceTime call from Shawn.

"Hey Hannon." His voice comes through the phone.

"Hey, shawn. Hold on, I'll be right back. Gotta get my pajamas from across the room." I giggle a little and leave my phone on the bed.

"You sound really happy."

"I am."

"And why would that be?" He asks me, teasing.

"You. Us. Whatever you want to call it."

I can tell he blushes when I say that because he gets quiet and then clears his throat.

"You're cute." He tells me, and I smile to myself.

I walk back over to the phone and seeing his face on my screen makes me happy.

...

"Well, I gotta go." He says eventually.

"Me too, it's almost midnight."

"Goodnight, Love." Shawn says, and I sigh with happiness.

"Goodnight, Mendes." I reply.

I drift off to sleep.

When I wake up, I have a text from shawn that he texted me at 1:25 am.

SHAWN: sleep well, beautiful.

I smile a little and get up to get ready for school.

As I'm downstairs eating breakfast, I see shawns Jeep pull up in front of the house.

"Who's that?" My Mom asks.

"Shawn." I tell her, and she smiles.

"Oh, that nice boy! He seems like a very caring young man. He will take good care of you. Do tell him I say hello!!"

I swear, my mom talks like she's 70.

"Sure thing."

I grab my stuff and walk outside to shawns car.

"Bye honey!"

To my horror, my mom has opened the front door and is waving at me.

I look through shawn's window and see him laughing at me.

"Bye, Mom." I roll my eyes, and shawn opens the window.

"Bye, Mrs. Hannon!" He says politely, and she smiles.

I can tell she approves.

"What are you doing after school?" Shawn asks me as I get in his Jeep.

"Nothing, why?"

"Well I was thinking we could go on a date. Like as an official couple."

"Where?" I ask him, blushing.

"That's a surprise. Don't worry, I've got it all figured out. I promise. You said you trust me, remember." He laughs a little, and his eyes sparkle as he looks at me.

We both fall silent, just looking at each other. He leans down towards me and kisses me softly. Then he turns back to the road and starts to drive.

Wow, I'm lucky.

As we drive he places his hand on my leg and runs his thumb back and forth gently.

I can't help but smile to myself. I turn up the radio, and the whole way to school we're singing out the lyrics to every throwback song he has on his phone.

We park in the parking lot, and get to school so early that no one else is there. It feels good to not have to hide once.

As we walk inside shawn takes my hand. I smile and lean my head on his shoulder.

I look at my clock and realize it's 7:40, 20 minutes before the final bell rings. That's why no one is here. Most people get breakfast before school.

As we open the door, the cars start pulling in, and shawn and I immediately let our hands drop.

"Close one." He mutters.

As I walk to my locker, shawn walks the opposite way to his. He kisses me once before he goes.

"AUBREYYYY." a shrill voice comes down  the hall, and Tatum runs over to me.

I cringe at how loud she is and then hope she didn't see us.

"Hey, has everything been okay lately? You haven't seemed like yourself." She seems genuinely concerned.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just a lot on my mind." I explain, and she hugs me.

"I'm always here if you need to talk about it." She promises.

Except you wouldn't be if I told you what's on my mind. Or I guess, who, is on my mind.