FEELS •shawn mendes•

feels •shawn mendes• ch. 22

My heart drops and I feel sick to my stomach. I look at the phone again and, hands shaking, I text back.

What's wrong?

It's a few seconds before I look back up at shawn and notice he looks concerned.

"Is everything okay?" He asks, taking my hand in his.

"Yeah. Everything is fine. Totally fine." I blurt out, and he looks at me strangely.

"Okay. Um. Well, I was just going to say that I leave in a week and—"

"Agh!" I whisper, noticing my phone blink with a notification from piper.

"Uh..Aubrey, are you okay?" Shawn says softly, and I snap back out of my panic and realize he was talking.

"Yeah. Yeah of course. Sorry. Continue." I stutter, and shawn nods.

"I was just saying that I leave in a week and I just want to know if you want to come to the airport with me."

My eyes well up with tears realizing I'm going to be alone for the next couple weeks.

"Sure." I blink back the tears, "I'd love to."

Shawn smiles at me, "thank goodness. I wouldn't want to have anyone else experience this with me."

We look at each other for a second before beginning to eat.

Once we leave the restaurant shawn pulls me into him and starts kissing me.

"Shawn, we're in public."

"Good. Now everyone can see how beautiful you are."

"Cant we at least go in the car?"

"Why? So I can rip your dress off like i promised earlier?" He teases, tracing a finger down my arm.

"I'm pretty sure this was expensive. Wouldn't rip it if I were you."

"You're no fun." He whines, walking to the car.

"I'm realistic."

...

"I can't believe you're really going to be gone." I tell shawn, leaning against him on the couch.

"Babe, it's not forever. I'll be back. And don't forget, we'll talk every day. I promise you that. Don't think I won't miss you too! I'll miss you more than anything else." Shawn says, playing with my hair.

"You're gonna become famous and you'll live in California away from me. Meet some model, fall in love or something."

I tell him.

"No." Shawn shakes his head. "I don't want that. And I won't have that. I want a life with you."

My heart flutters and I smile to myself. I sit up and look at shawn.

"You're special, you know that?" I say to him.

"I'm nothing without you." He tells me, and I laugh a little.

We sit in a comfortable silence for a little while before I get up to go to the kitchen.

We're at his house, as always, and I feel more at home there than anywhere else.

I hastily check my texts, and I feel relieved.

Tatum won't talk to me. Neither will Danny. I don't know what to do.

I breathe out a breath I didn't even know I was holding in.

She didn't tell her.

I go back out into the living room and lay back against shawn.