Sanders Sides Headcanons

First time - Moxiety

HC: The first time Virgil is someone other than Deceit his partner is so gentle and loving he cries. His partner stops because they think they hurt Virgil, but it's the opposite.

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- Virgil not wanting anyone to touch him or even to touch himself because he just feels bad and wrong and not good because he realises what he and Deceit had was 'not good' and abusive, he would just let Deceit walk all over him, hurt him, contradict the pain with praise only to strip it away later

- then he's with the others, they're his friends and they make sure to keep reminding him so he can never forget and have too many doubts about it. but things getting a little more serious between them, he watches the others kiss each other and hold each other, they always ask and offer him, most of the time he says no but if he says yes it's a quick and fleeting touch

- but it's Patton who gets him to cave fully and Patton asking him if he's okay constantly, if he can touch him. and Virgil wholly trusting Patton to be soft and careful and slow with him (and he is). and Patton's fucking him nice and slow

- and Virgil just crying silently for a while but turning into sobs and that's when Patton realises it and stops immediately asking if he's okay, if he's hurt but Virgil's shaking his head, telling Patton to keep going and assuring him he's okay. and Patton being hesitant until Virgil's moaning loudly in between his sobs and he's coming quickly, mind fogged with so much pleasure. Patton pulls out and comes over Virgil's stomach too, eyebrows still knitted together in worry but Virgil looks so good and fucked out

- Virgil whispering to Patton, after they're clean and cuddling in bed together, that he didn't know it could feel that good, and that he's so thankful for them and Patton just crying now because he feels guilty but Virgil is fine and happy now so holds him until he falls asleep