We Met On Insta

Chapter 3

A:n/ I don't believe I have a reason why this update is coming so late because the last one was on the 15th of January and it's now February but oh well, I'm here now and that's what counts. I want the topics of conversation to get deep at times so I apologize if there are some things you guys don't really want to read .

Tris POV

@BTP: Missing someone and not being able to see them is the worst feeling ever.....💔

Its currently 1am here and I cant seem to get Tobias out of my head, I wish he didn't live so far away as if it was just a walk down the street and I would be able to see him, I wish time zones didn't exist so that in times like this when I would really love to talk to him he wouldn't be busy living his own life, But I also sometimes wish I didn't have to depend on him as much as I feel I do.  All the heart to hearts we've had over the past couple of months make my stomach have butterflys and we haven't actually talked face to face its always just been direct messages. I personally don't want to move to fast because I have no idea how he is feeling on the other side of these messages and don't want to be left with a broken heart in the long run.

@TEO: Are you okay bub? I kinda know the feeling 💔

Those pet names little does he know i'm talking about him and really crave his company.

@BTP: Not really but I'll live  😊

@TEO: Seriously, you know i'm here to talk whenever aye? whatever its about you can let me know and i'll listen.

@BTP: It's just.. do you ever get that feeling... when you miss someone but can't see them.. for whatever reason... I don't know I probably sound absolutely stupid right now, just forget I even said anything i'm sorry.

Currently I am so tired, I really want a cuddle because it's cold but the only person I wan't to cuddle lives across an ocean and I really don't like it.

@TEO: Can I call you? 

What!? we don't call, we just message and i'm half asleep what the heck!

@BTP: Sure...

*Ring* *Ring* *Ring*

I answer the call quickly but not too quickly that it seems weird even though he knows I was already on my phone, I slowly place it up to my ear but don't say a word.

Tobias POV: (7:45am)

As soon as I wake up this morning I have messages from Tris but she seems kind of down, I hate it when my baby is sad..... wait.... my baby? when did I start referring to Tris as mine let alone being my baby. I quietly make my morning coffee without waking any of the guys who stayed over last night to watch the game and head outside onto the balcony.

@TEO: Can I call you?

This will be our first call ever but I wan't to know whats got her so down in the dumps, I bet her voice is beautiful and it must be so early there so she should be sleepy 😍

@BTP: Sure...

I open up my 'Princess 👑' contact on my phone and slowly lower my finger onto dial. when she answers she doesn't say anything but i can hear her breathing.

(Phone call)

4: "Hey....."
T: "Hey" she breathes out in a tired voice, absolutely beautiful...

T: Huh?

4: Sorry did I say that out loud?
T: I think so ....
4: Anyway, are you okay you seem down...
T: I think so....
4: You don't sound okay, baby whats wrong?
T: Its stupid... you shouldn't have called

I'm so glad she ignored the fact I called her baby.

4: Hey, If i didn't want to make sure you were alright I wouldn't have called. So talk to me... whats going on?

I've completely blocked out the house behind me i'm pretty sure some of the guys have started getting up and ready.

T: "hmm" she sighs "Is it weird to miss someone you've never met?"
4: I don't mean to sound like i'm assuming but if you're talking about me I promise I feel the same way every single day bub.
T: I just... I want to talk to you... without the screen separating us. I want to snuggle and let out my feelings that iv'e never told anyone.

I can tell shes on the verge of tears admitting this to me but it makes my heart flutter, she feels the same way about me as I do about her but i can tell theres still something, something that has made this wave of emotions wash over her in the first place.

4: Honey I freaking love talking to you and would wish nothing more than to be able to hold you in my arms, but something has got you feeling this way please tell me.
T: I see people, couples I should say, and I just always thought while I was younger that that would be me, I would be in a cute relationship that people get jealous over but whenever I see a cute single boy that I want to talk to I always think back to you and we aren't even together Tobias... we will never be able to be together.

That felt like a rip to the heart, first shes telling me she wants to snuggle with me and share her inner most thoughts and then she pretty much tells me i'm holding her back from having a relationship shes dreamed of having since she was young, I don't even know how to reply so I do the stupidest thing I could have ever done and just hung up the call... stupid... i know... but I cant take it back now.

@BTP: Thanks a lot Tobias. That really shows how much of a friend you are.

@TEO: I can't be the person holding you back from your dreams Tris, you need to be loved and you need to love and I cannot give you that from here in Oxford.

A:n/ Published the chapter without an authors note on the end oops... i honestly feel like i could've gone on with this chapter for so long but it needed to stop somewhere 😂 its 1030 words long so i think thats enough 😂