A/N:
Since I am so overwhelmed by your support with my latest update, here is a quick kinda of a filler update for you!
This chapter will shed some light on all of your confusion with Alyssa and her feelings.
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Alyssa Valdez
"Bro let me get this straight okay? Why the heck are you so sweet with Dennise when we were in Legazpi and the next minute you act like you guys are fucking strangers? I mean actually its only you who acts stupid for a week now."
That kinda blew me a bit but I can see Kim is not in the mood to joke on this matter. We are here at my office. Actually they barged in the minute they knew I am back. Well except for Ara since I was with her but still, theyre here in full attendance.
"Even Den asked me if may problema ka ba daw or youre just too caught up with work especially nung fashion show na. Ano ba yan besh! Ayusin mo nga 'to! Diba para kang timang sakanya dati? Now whats holding you back?" Naasar na tanong ni Ella. 2 points for my squad and still zero for me. Weeew!
"Are you scared?" Kim asked
"Oh...yes you are" She continued and thats 3 points for Kim Fajardo! Wow hahaha
"Cmon guys its office hours. If you dont intend to do business with me then leave kase marami pa akong gagawin. Okay?" Binalik ko ang tingin ko sa mga papers na nirereview ko before signing.
"Tol, lunch break. Wag kang mag-inarte. Tsaka for sure nag-order na itong si Jorella ng makakain natin. Diba Ella?"
Biglang nagring ang telepono ko. I think secretary ko lang.
"Yes?"
"Miss Ly? May delivery po dito. Papasukin ko na po ba?"
"Hahaha see? Tama ako!" Natatawang sabi ni Ara.
"Sorry na ha? Workaholic kayo at ako rin naman pero kayo always ang nakakalimot kumain e! Kaya I took the initiative hehehe" Paliwanag ni Elliit
"Yes, Lara. Papasukin mo na"
The moment nilapag ang food sa lamesa magkagalit muna kaming apat. Oo, siguro di namin masta
Masyadong napagtutuunan ng pansin ang pagkain tuwing work pero mararamdaman mo talagang gutom ka kapag may pagkain na sa harap mo e Hahaha
"Buuuuuuuuuuuuurp!"
"Yuck Ara! Kadiri ka!"
"Hoy ikaw ba Ella di ka dumidighay? Oa neto!"
"Kase pag siya dumighay ng ganun, tunog baboy! HAHAHAHA"
"Nice one Kim! Hahahaha" Binatukan tuloy ni Ella si Ara.
"Oy wag nga kayong ganyan. Si Ella kaya nagbayad ng nilamon niyo! Mga after 1 minue tsaka niyo siya asarin ulit Hahahaha" Totoo naman e diba? Hahaha Respeto naman sa nagbayad ng bill Hahaha
Konting kwentuhan lang at hindi nagtagal kinailangan ng umalis ni Ara at Ella dahil may kani-kaniyang meeting pa sila. Naiwan si Kim, which I guess would mean na one on one talk na talaga 'to.
"Bro"
I looked at Kim. Right then and there she wanted me to talk.
"Bro, you gotta let everything out your chest" She said.
"Kim...I dont know okay? The minute I wanted to be with her. Hold her. Hug her. I feel like Im intoxicated by her. Tapos bigla akong matatakot kase sobrang attached na ako. Na baka sa sobrang lubog ko na hindi na ako makakaalis pa kung kailangan na" Napasubsob na ako sa lamesa ko. Oo, natatakot talaga ako. Si Dennise kase yun e.
"Bro ano ba kasing ikinakatakot mo? I see that Dennise likes you near her and that she's comfortable being with you. Dude halata namang okay sakanya ang lahat"
"Kim, Dennise is fucking straight like a T square and even her personality and actions screams that out! What if sakin lang pala may meaning lahat ng gestures niya? What if wala lang pala sakanya ang lahat? What if its because were just friends? Oo tama ka were sweet like were lovers pero baka clingy lang talaga si Dennise! You cant blame me Bal. Ayoko lang umasa ng sobra sobra. Takot na ako."
Kumuha si Kim ng alak at baso. Binigay niya sakin yun kaya naman nilagok ko agad agad.
"Woah! Calm down Alyssa" She sat back in her seat pouring her glass a drink and mine too.
"You know what Ly hindi ka pa nga nagsisimula kay Dennise pero ganyan na ang takot mo. You took things fast nung nasa Legazpi tayo. You acted like she is already your girl and we all know Den just broke up with her ex. Kaya naman vulnerable ang emotions niya because she needs comfort and attention. She seeks the love she failed to have from that man"
"So what do you want me to do Kim? Nagkabalikan na siya at ng Ex niya. Eeksena pa ba ako? Kaya please lang ha tantanan niyo na ako"
"Huh? Anong nagkabalikan?"
"Yeah nagkabalikan na sila nung nasa Legazpi palang tayo. I saw them together."
"Magkasama lang nagkabalikan na? Di ba pwedeng closure lang at friends na?"
"Kissing, Kim. I saw them kissing in Den's dressing room nung bibigyan ko sana siya ng flowers before the event as a goodluck gift. So asan dun ang closure at friends na sinasabi mo?"
"Baka naman namalikmata ka lang Bro"
"Kim, please huwag niyo ng ipush masyado. Alam mo tama ka sa sinabi mo noon e. Na she might not be the Dennise Lazaro of the this world. Reality hitted me hard so tama na ang ganitong usapan okay?"
"Pero, Ly...-"
"Cmon Kim quit it. I have to go. May meeting pa ako"
With that, I left her in my office. Dumiretso na akong conference room kahit wala naman talaga akong meeting. I feel suffocated with the mere thought of her name. She's intoxicating. She's a poison to my heart. Push and pull ang feelings ko for her. Sometimes I recklessly go for what I feel not knowing all the consequences in return. Other times I am being covered with fear and all those what if's.
It's been days since I just view her instagram stories. Read her tweets and posts on her social media accounts. It is like Im back again to just fangirling a star. She is a star. She is there in a distance that you cannot ever reach.
I have always doubted myself to be close to her. I have everything every human on this Earth would want but still here I am, I cant even make her my girl or atleast be around her. Be her constant. Im too scared for that. Its worst than being lost in a crowd without your mom when you were a kid.
Today...It isn't even the first day to rain after summer but it felt that way. I can't even speak my heart whenever she is with me and even the word beautiful is an understatement for her.
"She is Dennise Michelle and she's someones girl."
I always say that She is Dennise and sometimes my friends wouldnt get it. Dennise, she is real you know? She is more than the girl I have read in books. More than those eyes. More than her passion over volleyball. More than her career. She is different from any other girl.
Also, I cant just act on my feelings kung alam kong may mahal siyang iba diba? Its obvious that I have no chances so why take the risk? Although I might take it if it wouldnt make her sacrifice her relationship with someone. Ofcourse even if Im into her hindi ko naman gugustuhin manira ng relasyon. Hayaan na natin siyang lumigaya at magkaroon ng magandang buhay. Lets just be happy for her. Thats the only thing I can do. Be happy for her.
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Message from Kim
Atleast be the kind of friend that you think she deserves.
Hindi parin talaga susuko ito noh? Hahaha But I guess she's right. Dennise deserves to be treated well and I guess thats my last resort.
"Friends"
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Fanfiction"I loved you without knowing the person behind the name and it felt right. It wasn't foreign and unusual. It was more of a home." -Alyssa Valdez When two worlds meet, would they crash or love each other instead?
