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Chapter 13

This is the most emotional and the worst chapter of the entire book.
I'm sorry.

Jisung opened the door for the rest of Stray Kids, who instantly fell silent when entering the dorms.

The air seemed heavy, and they soon figured it out once they spotted Jeongin lying on the couch, covered in blankets and Hyunjin sitting on a chair, which Chan had gotten him from the kitchen. Their leader was pacing in front of the dancer, sighing and running his hands through his hair.

He came to an abrupt stop in front of the latter, who shrunk in his seat. "THEN WHY DIDN'T YOU CALL ME??"

Hyunjin sank even lower. "I wasn't thinking."

Chan huffed in frustration, pulling at his blonde hair so hard that Seungmin thought he would tear it out.

Then he closed his eyes, inhaling and exhaling slowly, calming himself.

"I know your hip isn't working well, but that's not a reason to give up completely!! You could have literally called any member, he would've come in an instant!!"

Hyunjins head dropped lower, his shoulders shaking.

Chan knelt down in front of him, his expression and voice softening when he lifted up the youngers chin, wiping away the tears.

"I want to help you, don't you understand? I need all of you to stay sane right now, so don't you dare die on me."

Hyunjin lay his head on Chans shoulder and began to sobb, whilst Chan stroked his head. With his other hand he motioned the members to come in.

"I can't anymore," Hyunjin hiccuped. "My only passion was dancing. It was my happiness, my dream. It's over now. I can never," he got interrupted by his own sob, "ever," sob, "dance," sob, "again," and then he broke down completely. His fingers dug inside Chans sleeve, his breath hitching and his heart beating way too fast. His tears wouldn't stop and he could feel another panic attack starting.

"I'm here. I won't abandon you, never. We're a family now, remember? I love you, I need you, and we'll find a solution, understood?"

Hyunjin nodded, and began to match his breathing to that of Chan, repeating his words in his head.

We'll find a solution. We'll find a solution.

They stayed like that for a while, the members sitting on the floor, Hyunjin crying with his head on Chans shoulder who was kneeling in front of him.

Then slowly, Hyunjin raised his head. He turned around, facing Stray Kids.

And he knew he had a lot of explaining to do.

They drew lots as to who would sleep next to Jeongin.

It wasn't that no one wanted to, it was the other way around. They all wanted to.

Hyunjin won in the end.
The members believed that it was giving him a reason to being there.

They watched from a close distance how he lay down next to their maknae, snuggling close. It was hard to realise that Hyunjin wanted to die and almost attempted suicide earlier that day.

When they went to bed, Chan noticed the message, the one that was sent after the "accident" of Jeongin.

Anonymous:
"Oh, how blinding love is."
                            5:12 PM ✔

Suddenly, Chan had an idea he called genius at that time, but called his biggest mistake only hours later: he decided to reply Anonymous.

"I know who you are."
Read 10:32 PM

"Did Hyunjin tell you?"
                     10:33 PM ✔

Chan didn't reply. What should he say??

"I'll take that as a yes. Thank you for your honesty."
             10:36 PM✔

"You still give the best dance lessons," Seungmin laughed as Hyunjin and he were heading into the lobby after dance practice. The others were somewhere behind them.

"You think so?", Hyunjin questioned, blushing slightly. It felt good to get compliments again.

"Of course!!" Seungmin sounded like the dancer had just insulted everything he believed in. Maybe that was the case. "I like you much more than our actual teacher, because you're so much nicer." He pouted.

Hyunjin smiled. Seungmin did get scoulded a lot.

"You'll be amazing in no time. I expect great things from you." The smile on Hyunjins face widened into a grin and Seungmin beamed back at the others encouraging words.

"I won't disappoint you, promise!!" Seungmin ran a few steps ahead to be able to face Hyunjin while talking.

"Do you think I'll..." The singer broke off mid sentence. His eyes went wide.

Before Hyunjin could ask what the problem was, Seungmin spit blood on the floor and then just collapsed.

In front of Hyunjin was the person he had never wanted to see again, the person who haunted his dreams every night, and that person was pointing a gun at him after having shot Seungmin.

"He was worthless anyways," he said when he saw the tears in the dancers eyes.

Anonymous.

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Heyo, sorry for that.

Someone asked me for book recommendations of SK, so I have some for you:

seo_changbin
"SUGAR"
It's a HyunSeung FanFiction and it's really good and really adorable.

mk0401
"FROZEN"
A ChangLix FanFiction, beautifully written and cute af.

Zoebear-01
"Stray Kids Imagines"
What the title says. I really like reading those, they are the highlights of my day and I always know what to read when I feel down.

Then my own FanFiction about MinSung (it's on my profile). I always forget the name, but I will focus more on that when I'm done here.

changlixfix
"@ifelforyou"
This one is a Social Media ChangLix FanFiction and it's really adorable, it's really well made.

That's it.

See you in the last chapter~~

Teddy out~ ♥