Caspar's POV:
"Hi, my name is Caspar Lee. This video is dedicated to Y/n y/m/n y/l/n, who was taken from this world too soon.
Her hands, they-they fit in mine like it was made for it. I remember, when we would just lay in bed, i'd connect the dots with the freckles on her cheeks." I say, holding back tears.
"She never loved the little crinkles by her eyes when she smiled, and she never liked her stomach or thighs. she had these little dimples at the bottom of her spine that she disliked so much."
By now, i'm a mess.
"She could never get a full nights rest without a cup of tea. maybe that's why she talked in her sleep. the conversations and secrets i kept, even though they make no sense. She hated her voice on tape, so she never made videos with me. She hated being weighed and would always have an anxiety attack at the doctor when they had to weigh her. She would sometimes still have to squeeze into her jeans because she was determined to wear them. but she was perfect to me. I know she'd never love herself as much as i loved her, or treat herself right but i wanted her to. I miss her with every single fiber in my body. She was a car accident 4 months ago, which is why i haven't been making videos. she was killed on impact and the drunk who hit her walked away without a scratch. I miss her everyday, there isn't a day that goes by that i don't miss seeing her walk through that door and complain to me about her coworkers. it never once annoyed me, because i loved the sound of her voice. I miss rolling over in bed and finding her body, now i only find a dip in her side of the bed that smells like her. I think we should re-define tragedy as 'that which is impossible to get over' I sat in my own filth for 3 weeks until a dear friend walked into my room with a towel, hoping i wasn't another impossible task and said 'you are a taking a shower right now.' that shower was the hardest thing i've ever done. You can't get over someone's death, but you can take a shower. and then get dressed, and then find your keys, and then go grocery shopping. then you can do your laundry and then it's 4 months later and she is still dead and i'm happy. I don't believe in god but i believe in miracles and being here is a miracle. Thank you guys for watching. don't drink and drive. please. someone's loved one is on that road. please."
