It's dark outside as we travelling back from the hospital, drizzle hits the windscreen in a slow steady rhythm that reflects my mood. We have just been to see my sister Mia and my mum who is staying with her in the hospital. Mia is very poorly and recieveing treatment for Leukaemia and was taken back into hospital a few days ago because she had caught a bug. We are back in Milton Keynes now but we are not going straight home he's taking me to the video shop, i like this shop it has lots of good cartoons to borrow and watch. We go inside and he stops by the naughty videos that mummy told me where for adults only, he tells me to go find a video to watch when we get home. So i go straight to the cartoons and look for tom and jerry, Mia and i love tom and jerry it makes us laugh lots. I feel a bit said because Mia won't be here to watch it with me, I will just have to tell her all about it when i see her tomorrow,
We have paid the nice lady for our films and are on our way back home, we get inside and the house is dark and silent it feels a bit creepy and cold. I am sent up stairs to get my pj's on and to brush my teeth. I go into mummies room and take her dressing gown as i am a bit cold and missing her so much, i wrap it around my self and take a deep sniff and find the comfort in it i need with her scent on her dressing gown. I head back down stairs and head to the front room, he has made me a glass of juice and has set up the telly ready for my cartoon. He is sat on the sofa with a bottle of brown stuff and a glass in his hand. I sit in front of the telly on the floor because i can't see the telly from the sofa, this is my normal spot to watch telly.
He sets the cartoon to play and i get lost in the antics of tom and jerry, thats until i feel him behind me on the floor rubbing my back. I try to shuffle away so i can watch my cartoon but he pulls me back to him.
*just stay here with me Annya, mummy told you to be a good girl and do as i say didn't she?* He's breathing in my ear and it sends shivers down my back and his breath smells nasty just like the smell from the pub down the road and fags.
I nod my head reply and look back to the telly, i don't want to be naughty and up set mummy, she has too much to worry about with my sister. So i do as he asked and stay put and watch my cartoon. Then he's hand slowly makes it way around my front and resting on my bear leg. I am wearing my favourite nighty, Mia and i have the same one to be matching.
I look down at his hand it's big and chubby with rough skin on his fingers, it's hot on my skin as he slowly moves it up under my nighty. I am not wearing any knickers because mummy always said it was better to have none on at bed time. His had stops at the top of my leg and he must realise i have no knickers on. He's breathing heavy in my ear now and telling me to be a good girl.
* You want to be a good girl for me don't you?. You don't want me to have to tell your mummy that you have been naughty do you? * All the time his rough fingers are rubbing very close to my fufu. * I 'm going to show you how much i love you Annya , you want that don't you?.
I'm so confused right now, i want to be a good girl just like mummy asked me to be and if he wants to love me and that will make mummy happy right? * i want to be good girl for mummy* i say with a weak voice.
* Mummy told you to do as i say and to listen to me didn't she Annya? So I want you to let me show you that i love you ok? I nod my head again, i seem to have lost my voice.
His hand moves slow but with meaning as his finger brushes the lips of my fufu, it feels uncomfortable and rough. I try to close my legs to stop him from having access to my fufu. But he just gets mad and pulls them open again and snaps at me to keep them open like a good girl. His hand feels so big against my little legs, and i can really feel the roughness of his fingers now. Then he brushes one of his chubby fingers against the soft flesh of my little whole, It's too big to go in there surely i say to my self. Then there is a sharp pain as he shoves that chubby finger into my whole, i yelp in pain and try to close my legs and get up from the floor. But he holds me down and growls into my ear,
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Damaged And Worthless.
RomanceAnnya's had to deal with a lot in her past but if she thought thats was hard she's surely mistaken. Losing her sister was hard enough but sadly that was the easy part, now she to relive the darkest parts of her childhood whilst going through a divo...
