Can't Let Him Go Larry Stylinson BoyxBoy On Hold

Chapter 14

A/N: I forgot to post this, oops! Well, enjoy…

Gathering my courage, I finally look at Louis' face for the first time in a year.

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Harry's POV:

I stand in front of Louis with my hand still on his shoulder, gazing down at him sadly.

His once glowing tan skin had now faded. His hair had grown some and hung in limp locks round his face and he'd lost a lot of weight. But it was his eyes, the ones I used to think of as the windows to his soul, that struck out the most to me.

The sparkle in his cerulean blue eyes had all but gone out. Where his eyes used to remind me of the beach water on sunny days, they were now reminiscent of dull, rainy days.

The shadows under his eyes told countless stories of sleepless nights but there was nothing being expressed in those eyes. They were blank, void of any emotion and the realization that I did that hit me hard.

I took away the sparkle from Louis' eyes, I'm to blame for each and every one of his sleepless nights. I'm the cause of Louis' depression and his current condition right now. I've put him through so much grief but he's never done any wrong by me..

Why Louis? Why did you let me treat you so rudely. I wasn't able to cherish your love for me and in my foolhardiness, lost you. I'm so sorry for all the grief that I've caused you, babe, I'm really very sorry. I'm so ashamed of myself and all the pain that I've caused you. If I could only take it all back...

Everything I had ever felt for Louis seemed to be pouring out of me at that moment. It was like all my love, all my guilt, all the dreams we had, all the mistakes we made, all the moments we shared, every last thing, every last memory came to me and I could just stare at the vacant face of my beloved as tears began rolling down my own face.

I knelt down, so that I was now resting on my heels between Louis' legs and laid down my head on his lap. I wanted him to reach down and ruffle my hair, twirling the curls around his fingers as he tugged on them while carelessly talking about stuff that was important to no one else but him.

But that wouldn't be happening any time soon. That Louis was gone, hidden deep inside this shell because of me. A sob escaped my lips at the thought.

But even as I sat there crying, I knew I wouldn't give up, not this time. This time it wouldn't be like the last, this time we wouldn't break. This time things would be different. This time, I will not let Louis get away from me, nor will I let myself push Lou away. This time, I will fix it all...myself, Louis, us...everything!

With renewed determination, I pull my head off Louis' lap and wipe my tears. I take his hands in both my own and bring them up to my lips, pressing soft kisses on his palms.

"I'm so sorry, Lou, so unbelievably sorry for all that I've done to you. I love you baby, i truly do but I'm also an idiot who let the best thing in my life slip away due to a drunken mistake that i can't even remember. I let you go due to my own misguided morals and that was the worst thing I could've ever done."

I take a deep breath, placing his hands on my cheeks with mine still covering his, as I look up at his lifeless face earnestly.

"But...I'll do anything to get you back, Louis. I'll do anything to take away that blank look and replace it with your smile and laughter again. I promise you Lou, I will put an end to this hurt, I will be there every step of the way and I will finally give you all the love and happiness that the entire world holds."

I finally can't hold myself back anymore and put my arms around Louis, pulling his limp body on myself as I move to lay on the bed. Whilst he still doesn't move, I only press him closer, nuzzling my head into his shoulder and taking in the clean scent that was a mixture of soap and something distinctly Louis.

"Don't give up Lou, I love you!"

I lay there as I took reassurance from having Louis present in my arms again, I slowly become aware of the fact that Louis' breathing has become increasingly heavy and his body was shaking against mine.

OH. MY. GOD.

Louis shouldn't be able to move or react in such manner. According to what I know about Vegetative State, the patient is trapped in his or her own mind which renders them motionless. VS patients do not have any physical disabilities, it's just their emotional pain which makes it almost impossible for them to find the energy to even look at anything let alone move. They simply stay in whatever position anyone leaves them in because they don't want to move..

But Louis is breathing abnormally and his body is moving whether he is coherent of his thoughts or not. I try to move him away so I could press the 'call' button for the nurse but his arms wrapped around me faster than a flash.

"No, NO! Harry no, please no. Stay with me, I love you, please I'm sorry." he whimpers, clinging to me like a koala bear, although I think he is still incoherent and unaware that it is in fact me he's holding onto.

I put my arms around him again and kiss his head. "Never again am I leaving you again, never!" I whisper into his hair, patting his back gently to calm him down

I comfort Louis until he finally goes to sleep, silently making a promise to myself that I will be here when he wakes up, now and forever.

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Well, Larry have reunited it seems, for now at least. But the Taylor misunderstanding is still there and Louis has been out of it for a year, he ain't gonna recover that fast. And there's his underlying depression as well. Plus Ziall need to get together as well. Should I give them a separate book or just end their story here?

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