DAY6 DRABBLES

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PAIRING:
jaehyungparkian

—

Younghyun knows he shouldn't have come, but here he is.

Jae is passed out on top of him, naked and heavy and covered in sweat, wearing lingering traces of the post-sex bliss on his face and long scratches running down the otherwise unmarred expanse of his back. He looks incredibly peaceful in the tranquility of sleep, pink lips turned up ever so slightly in a soft smile, and this is how Younghyun likes him best.

On Jae's back there are a couple of places where his skin had broken, too, which makes pride swell in Younghyun's chest. He feels like an animal marking its territory, although he knows Jae isn't his. He knows Jae will never give back what he takes and continues to take, he knows Jae will never love him right, he knows, he knows, he knows –

(Jae's watch, lying discarded on the pile of clothes he'd thrown off only an hour ago, beeps one o'clock.)

He knows, because on the desk sits a framed picture of Jae with a vaguely familiar, pretty, pink-sweatered boy kissing his cheek, and on the mirror there's a little lopsided hand-drawn heart beside a date written in sharpie and a stranger's handwriting. An anniversary, maybe. Probably. Younghyun doesn't know, doesn't want to. He tells himself he doesn't care to.

He knows that's not true, though, because even just the amount of effort he exerts not to wake Jae up when he sneaks out is appalling.

—

"You went to see him?" Sungjin asks when Younghyun shows up to work the next morning. "Again?"

Younghyun can't look him in the eye, but he can't lie to him, either; he can never lie to Sungjin. "I didn't mean to."

"What do you mean, you didn't mean to?"

"He called me."

"You picked up?"

"He was drunk."

"You wouldn't have known that if you hadn't picked up!"

"Just – " Younghyun sighs and buries his face in his hands. "Just leave it alone, okay? I know I shouldn't – I won't do it again. I didn't mean to. I know I shouldn't have."

Sungjin leaves it alone for about five seconds before he tries a softer approach. "You know he's dating Kim Wonpil, right?"

"Dowoon's ex?"

"Yeah."

That explains why Younghyun had thought his face looked familiar. "Oh."

"You don't look surprised."

"Jae has a picture of him on his desk."

"Oh." Sungjin looks conflicted, like he's the one in love with a man that'll never love him back. "So what're you going to do?"

Younghyun shrugs. Sungjin doesn't push any further.

—

Younghyun doesn't officially meet Wonpil until Dowoon's birthday party, although he feels at home from the moment Wonpil grins at him. Dowoon is oblivious and Jae's not there, thankfully, but Sungjin is, and Younghyun spends the better half of the night pretending not to see the knowing, concerned looks sent his way.

("Oh, I know you!" Wonpil exclaims upon his arrival. "I've seen you in Jae-hyung's pictures! It's nice to finally meet you, Younghyun-ssi."

"You too. And just call me hyung.")