pastel colors | taehyung

1.8

i couldn't meet hani's eyes. i just couldn't. i felt like i betrayed her. i was walking hani to her bus stop now that we had dropped sephy home.

an awkward silence hung between us. or was it just that i was the who was being awkward?

i felt like a husband coming back to his wife after having an affair. there was a really guilty feeling in my gut.

i had cheated on hani.

we were both lost in our thoughts as we walked through the streets of the city. seoul really was beautiful at night. the dazzling lights, the aromatic smells from the food stalls and the hustle and bustle of the heavy crowds. but everything fell weak in front of hani; she was more beautiful.

i turned slowly to steal a glance of her but i found her missing from my side. i started panicking. where was she? i scanned my surroundings quickly thinking that i had lost her in the thick crowd.

"tae over here!"

my head snapped to the direction of the voice. there i saw hani waiting in the queue of a tteokbokki stall.

i jogged towards her and joined the long queue as well, thankful that i didn't lose her. 

"are you hungry?"

"i'm always hungry for tteokbokki" 

i caught a whiff of the smell inside the store and my stomach growled loudly causing hani to giggle. i cursed in my head. really stomach? why you gotta do me dirty like this? when will my body realise that we're on the same team.

suddenly the people in front of us moved backwards to let a big group out. one person accidentally pushed hani causing her to lose her balance and fall.

as she fell she grabbed onto to something to prevent her from falling.

that something was my collar.

i wasn't paying attention to my surroundings so when hani pulled my collar i wasn't prepared and ended up falling too.

falling on top of her.

i quickly placed my hands on either side of hani's head so that she did not have to bare my body weight.

hani's face was directly in front of mine. there wasn't even a 5cm distance between our faces. i could see every pore and every hair on her face. i never thought that i would ever get such an opportunity to see her up this close. 

hani, who had her eyes tightly shut, opened them slowly and holy cow i could feel my heartbeat double.

her chocolate brown eyes twinkled as they reflected the city lights. her luscious lips opened and closed and her voice brought me back to reality.

"whoa oh my god i'm so sorry. are you okay?"

"yeah i'm fine don't worry" she let out a laugh. 

she was so close that i even felt her breath on my skin as she spoke. at this point my heart had jumped out of my chest. i wonder if she felt it.

"can you feel my heartbeat?" the words accidentally left my mouth. 

my eyes widened in shock. my brain was in complete lock down mode. my face heated up fast and i was sure that i looked like a tomato. well done kim taehyung. i just dug my own grave. 

"can you feel mine?"

a small blush was starting to form on her cheeks and frick frick frick. 

is this how i die?

goodbye friends, it was nice knowing you all.  

goodbye parents, i'm sorry i was such a useless son.

goodbye readers, i'm sorry for making you chose between taeni and taephy.

"tae" hani's raspy voice snapped me out of my train out thoughts.

"hmm?"

"you can get off me now"