Drafts

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by rapflow

by rapflow

(Hook)
I keep writing but all I end up is with drafts
I keep writing but all I end up is with drafts
I try to laugh and enjoy but it's frustrates me now
I need a break from it, I hope you could see how
I plummet, and end up with drafts

(Verse -XxGolden_WolfxX)
All I aim for in life is perfection
But damn it it's becoming a fucking obsession
"You should give up!"
"You can't make it just quit"
That's all they say, bitches won't hesitate to shit on your dreams
But I ain't a quitter so quit it

(Verse- Rapflow)
I admit it, that I feel ridiculous a piece of shit
You squeeze to get it out your ass, the weakest kid
You see around the block, who hides to the sound of clocks
I'm with the thoughts that my mind ticks and tocks
You kids do watch how I did get lost
With the sickest thoughts I've been pissed off
Punching walls, bleeding my fists all night

(Verse- XxGolden_WolfxX)
But what if they're right? I spend countless hours writing down lines upon lines
Cross the shit out, I'm wasting my time I'm supposed to be at my prime but I'm wasting my skill on worthless rhymes
But now the rage and self doubt breaks me down like enzymes
I feel like screaming and crying Why do I keep trying?

(Verse -Rapflow)
Why do I keep fighting? Why can't we be enlightened?
It's like a street fight and I'm feel my defeat might win
So I wanna leap right in permanent sleep
Time is perfectly against me, so I take pen and start writing
Try to perfect my craft but all I end is with DRAFTS

(Verse- XxGolden_WolfxX)
I have all these drafts in my room
Grab the broom
Sweep them into the corner
They ain't good enough
Dammit my self doubt is back creeping back up on me
Slowly
Maliciously
It's terrifying me

(Verse-Rapflow)
I got hide, this fear's reminding me, of my silencing
And how I feel about myself, Man I ain't triumphing
I am in a dire situation, all I got is words to breathe
Every scar you see is the worse in me
Pain is necessary rest is tertiary
No matter how much I try

(Verse- XxGolden_WolfxX)
This obsession over perfection has become a curse to me
I thought I was blessed
But I'm just a fucking mess
I'm in a ball of stress
Trapped
Alone with the voices in my head
And the shattered self esteem and
Depression that's making me wish I was dead

(Verse Rapflow)
I wish I could rest in peace, but all I have is a piece
I'm a trash and a disease, relapsed in with speed
Depression's been trafficking me, half of my needs
Practically killed, I can't get back up to my knees
But yet I get suggestions from the world
A message from a bird that I'm wretched and they hurl
Every second that I'm mentioned...stop your the-rapy sessions

(Verse- XxGolden_WolfxX)
I wanna stop this constant progression of regression
Break out of this never ending circle but I can't so I keep writing a line, cross it out

(Verse-Rapflow)
Throw the pad, then start to shout
That no matter how hard I try I can't master my craft
No matter how much I write I end up with DRAFTS

(Verse-Rapflow)
How do I prove that I'm worth it?
My inks gone blue like some Smurf shit
But I can't stop now, it's too long since I've been working
I feel like I've dropped down, and the grounds been purchased
By ones who wanna see me fall, but they're worthless
So I take by my pad, screw your disturbance
Keep writing and scratching till the beats murder
But if I fail I'mma...

(Verse - XxGolden_WolfxX)
Redo it again til it's perfect
But now imma use it to my advantage
I'm no longer using this shit for granted
My team don't stop
Yeah the grind don't stop
Yeah we don't stop till we make it to the top
Or till we collapse on the spot
Drop dead
Whichever comes first just know you ain't gonna stop me
Me and Saraogi
We're climbing to the summit B
We're never gonna plummet G
This game is gonna witness our ascension
And I promise you there ain't gonna be no prevention

(Verse - Rapflow)
And it's essential for you to know, Fuck your resentment
And I'm giving my drafts attention, and I can't end it
By leaving on the paper, it's a drag, can't suspend it
Like my teachers in the class, I'mma reach up to the mass
Speak up till I collapse the so leave us in the raft
If you don't believe us we gon crash
Every single one of you, then we gon laugh
Me and XxGolden_WolfxX present to you our DRAFTS

(Bridge- Rapflow)
Let me show what my crew feel, See the true skill
A proved will, you'll see how drafts make us move
We'll show you GamerDJay and VulgarEnterprise
They some beasts hey and here they rise....

(Verse- GamerDJay)
Can't even think straight, I just wanna relax.
Wanna look at the good side but when anxiety attacks
Then I can't do shit except cry 'till I collapse.
I'm sitting' here thinking about your negative feedback.
Your words repeating in my head, can't think of a good comeback.
But know that my crew's always with me, 'cause they got my back
Ready to attack.
And if you fuck with me just know that I'm the leader of this wolf pack
Yeah I ain't going back down.
No matter how much you try, ya can't keep pushing me around
No more, so just listen hear me out.
This is my game, and battlefield's my playground.
I ain't giving up until I watch you as you break down

(Verse - VulgarEnterprise)
Folding these drafts,
Roll up tobacco not that grass,
Infecting my lungs with that cancer, chain smoker,
Hella bad, black jacket, feeling hella sad, Jack Daniels in the front pocket, cigarillo stains and smelling dank,
I write my pains in such vast ways, melodies, deleting all our selfies, all this hurt, cry in poetic ways,
Eyes heavy, cut the tape please,
I'm sorry but I just can't continue...
They ask why you so high? Duh,
All this hurt, the feeling of low,
Fucking out here dying like I'm lil peep,
Bitch ass hoe, no, no, no, no, nah,
Ripping up these pieces of paper with the love and lyrics, hah,
Messes and wild spirits, huh,
Teen love and hell I'm having fun,
Fuck you bitches, takes another swig,
Y'all say you care, spits on de' non believers,
How dare you even compare your level of sympathy with a level of fucking civil dignity,
Hashtag charity for the mentally broken because goddamnit I need some coping,
Yeah, wide eyed,
I'm chopped, lackadaisical,
Screwed, yawn,
Other words I'm high as fuck, slow clap,
Crying please will you come lend a hand? Shepard of the holy one will you guide me into eternal light?
I need the power of sight this world makes me blind,
I feel abused from each new use of the word millennial,
You imbecile,
You damaged my motherfucking psyche,
Stop and cry, shut the fuck up,
Outta my face, deep sobs,
Narratives cease and dies,
Fuck ex generations,
Judgemental old fat faggots, that just doesn't even make sense,
I've done had, last bulb shocked,
Rip it up and throw it with the other damn drafts I guess...

Shout out to VulgarEnterprise GamerDJay XxGolden_WolfxX
Damn these fuckers are dope