I find myself wanting to disappear more often than it's healthy. Like I want to stop existing but I can't figure out how to do that. And meanwhile I just have to continue living, which is so hard. Mostly because my existence doesn't mean anything to anyone, so I don't even know why I'm existing . Who I'm existing for. What I'm existing for. And that makes it diggicult to wake up in the morning. Because there is no reason to. Nobody would care if you don't. And once you realise that, you're fucked. Once you realise you're worthless, it's hard to think of anything else.
