They will say open up and when you do, make sure you only talk about small things that are easily solved: you are stressed by school, you feel left out sometimes. Never fucking mention the thick bladelines. Do not trust them to text you back if you write it's kind of getting to be a bad night. Instead add something like I dropped my ice cream on my lap oh what woe is this and then, while smiling, start cutting your wrist. I know they have said you can ask for help at any time. They mean with your math homework, not your demons. When you send them a message that says I am thinking of taking pills right now, make sure you save it somehow with a lie like do you know what could stop my headache or make it into a joke with do you think they will sell molly at cvs because here's the thing I'm sure you guessed: nobody knows how to save you from this.
