Forever In My Heart

Forever In My Heart - Chapter Two

Chapter Two

The next morning I woke up determined, I was definitely going to confront Callum today about why he didn’t react to the kiss. It feels even worse being ignored than being rejected.  I know I’m his best friend but I can’t figure out why he wouldn’t want to kiss me, I am pretty hot compared to some girls at college… wait could that be it, does he like another girl that he hasn’t told me about?

I shook off all the questions that were running through my head because I knew I wasn’t going to get an answer by thinking them to myself, and got out of bed to have a shower before I got myself ready for college. I will ask Callum after our classes have finished and when we are in privacy. I don’t know whether to feel excited or nervous about what I’m going to be doing today, I really hope it goes well.

I finished having my shower and I got dressed into my favourite pair of skinny jeans and a cosy jumper because it was really cold outside. I then heard a beep coming from outside and I knew it was Callum because he said he would pick me up. I took a deep breath and rushed downstairs. I shouted a pointless ‘goodbye’ to my mum and Sam and then left the house to get into his car. Callum is actually so lucky, he passed his driving test first time and his parents got him a gorgeous car, whereas I didn’t pass on my first time… I took three attempts. It was pointless though because mum and Sam didn’t even buy me a car for my eighteenth. They told me that I had to pay for it myself just like they had to. I don’t believe them though; I think they are just saying that so they would have more money to spend on their precious baby!

“Hey hun, how are you doing?” Callum asked as I got into his car. He was acting like his usual self and I don’t know how to react to that. Maybe I should ask him now instead of after lessons.

“OK I guess. You?” I asked awkwardly.

"Yeah good thanks, once I left yours I practised our dance and I think that it’s going to be amazing today!” he smiled, which made me groan. “What’s the matter E?”

“You!”

“I don’t understand. What have I done?” he asked, he was so confused.

“Nothing… and that’s the problem. You didn’t react at all when I kissed you yesterday. You didn’t freak out, or kiss me back. You acted like your usual self and to be honest, that hurt so bad Callum it really did. Please tell me what you were thinking.” I confessed.

He frowned, “I’m so sorry Erin I didn’t mean to make you feel terrible about yourself I really didn’t. I didn’t know how to react so I didn’t. I thought you would have wanted me to act like usual because you were so embarrassed and I didn’t want to make it worse for you. I promise I only did it for you!” I smiled weakly; it was comforting to hear what he had to say but for some reason it didn’t satisfy me. It felt like he was hiding something from me.

After a minute or two of an awkward silence, Callum started to drive to college. As he drove I looked out the window and thought about what he could be hiding, I known him for ten years so I know for sure when he’s hiding something from me.

When we were nearly at college I decide to have a joke with him, I didn’t want to be like this with him all day. It would kill me!

“So was I a good kisser then?”

He smiled, “Of course E! Best I’ve ever had.” When he said that I realised that I was actually his first kiss, I’ve had kisses with boys before but I don’t think Callum’s ever kissed a girl. Pride swelled up inside me, I was his first kiss!

“Glad to hear it!” I laughed and he laughed with me.

The car stopped and I noticed we were in the college parking lot. We got out the car and Callum reached out his hand to me, “Ready to dance our butts off?” he asked as if I had a choice. If I didn’t work hard then I’m never going to pass this course and I really need to if I want to become a dance teacher. I took his hand and we walked off to our dance class.