Bex Mack: Story of Bexs life!

Baby

Dad: "Bex!! Bex!! Wake up!!"
I woke up to the sound of my dad calling my name and shaking me like I was dead.
"Wh-I'm- ho- how long have I've been asleep?"
I struggled to say what I wanted to say but I managed to get what I wanted to get out.
Dad: "Are you ok?"
"Yes I'm fine, how long have a been asleep?"
Dad: "for like ten minutes... why did you lock the doors? You scared me!"
"Why would I scare you? I'm a teen who was upset and didn't want people to talk to me."
Dad: "I know that, but what happened down there scared me and when you locked both doors I thought you were gonna try to-"
"Woah. Wait a minute."
My anger was coming back.
"Why are you both assuming I have depression? Just because I'm pregnant and I'm sensitive to a few things doesn't actually mean I have depression."
Dad: "Bex, why would you think that?"
At this point I was so mad I didn't care about how much trouble I was gonna get in.
"I saw the email dad.... you were signing me up to speak with a therapist about me having depression."
Dad: "Why were you looking through the computer when you weren't supposed to be?!"
"No. Stop. Stop trying to avoid this and tell me why you didn't talk to me about this."
Dad: "Bex, we want you to be safe. I don't want to lose you and I want you to be happy. But you shouldn't have been on the computer."
"How am I supposed to be happy when mom always yells at me for everything I do? How am I supposed to be happy with the thought that Aunt Mei And Ling probably Hate me? How am I supposed to be happy that I have the thought that I'm gonna be a single mom?! Maybe this is why I'm 'depressed' because none of you will listen to me, and whatever I do is a mistake to mom. I want to be happy but this is my life right now. I don't want to go talk to someone about my problems that I don't even know. I just don't. Honestly if you want me to be happy, I want to be alone."
Dad: "Bex. We love you, you know how mom is..."
"Then why don't you stand up for me? Why don't you say anything? You're the adult and I'm the child..."
After I said that he got up and left without saying a word.
Finally peace.
I wanted to do something that would make me happy but there was nothing.
I didn't want to listen to music because I just wasn't in the mood.
I didn't want to read because I was starting to get a headache.
And I have no idea where my phone is and I felt to lazy to search for it.
I looked over to the nearest thing, my memory box.
I reach to grab the box.
I didn't want to open it because I knew I was just gonna cry. But I did anyways.
The first thing I opened up to was the picture of me and Bowie.
I miss him so much.
I put that aside and searched through other pictures.
Pictures of me and Katelyn at parties.
More pictures of me and Bowie.
And other fun memories.
Then all the pictures were out of the box piled on the side of the box.
But there was still one more picture left.
It was in the secret door.
I grabbed the green pin and opened it up.
As I opened it the picture slowly feel with the lid of the secret door.
When it fully opened, the picture feel into my hands.
I dropped the lid and held the picture with two hands.
I stared at the picture and started to smile and cry, but happy tears.
It's like the picture is talking to me.
"It's gonna be ok! You're gonna be ok! We are going through this together! We can do it!"
Even though this baby isn't fully formed into a human, I felt like He/she was talking to me and comforting me.
Then I started to talk to the baby.
"It will be ok. I'm here with you and I will make sure you will turn out to be amazing. I don't ever want this, what I'm going through to happen to you. I may say things I don't mean but even though you don't even have ears yet, you have helped me."
This baby, when bowie left, has helped me let me know I still have a part of bowie with me and I have someone who's gonna look up to me.
This helped me and made me feel a lot better.
I put everything back into the box except for the ultrasound.
I set my box aside and grabbed the picture frame that was on my nightstand of me and Katelyn.
"Sorry Katelyn, you can go on my wall."
Even though she wasn't there I still felt like the need to say that out loud.
I set the picture of me and Katelyn aside and put the picture of my baby in the frame.
After that I put the picture frame back on my nightstand and just sat there looking at the picture like it was some new addicting show.
After about five minutes I got up and went downstairs.
Both my mom and dad were in the dinning room.
Mom: "Bex, I'm sorr-"
"It's ok. I'm sorry too. I did say some mean things in the past and I kind deserved that."
My mom smiled and nodded. She doesn't like to say that she was also wrong too but I didn't care. I just wanted to be happy.
I sat at the table with them and at first it was silent then my dad broke it.
Dad: "Random, but did you see Lings face?! It was like she was being attacked by a murder or something."
"Her expression was funny."
Mom: "Yeah.. haha"
Then we all started to laugh.
Sometimes you can really be mad at your family, but that's what families do.
They fight and it's just a part of life.
But moments like these are the moments you're gonna remember.