Dying For Freedom [BoyxBoy]

Confession Break Hearts

It could have been hours.

It could have been days.

For no word beyond that was breathed. The only reminded. The only essences that revealed this was real. That this was not a picture painted for my own view.

Was the boy before me.

The boy with with hazel eyes.

James Diamond.

"Okay can we stop this...I just wanted to apologize for punching you yesterday...I had no right. I-"

"No. It's fine...You had every right to punch me...I just want to know why you got so furious when I told you about Brandon?"

The words entangled with one another. Mingling them around.

But every letter was like a pen, in a deadly silent room.

It was glass breaking in the ears.

So was the mirror in our eyes.

Hazel held freezing shock.

Green held wonderment.

Neither would slip. Neither would break.

For the breaking would reveal what was in the last chapter of their souls.

"I only came here to apologize! Plus you never told me why we aren't friends anymore. The real reason, Kendall. So I don't have to tell you anything. I shouldn't even come back to this house. I shouldn't have said something to you whe-

"It's because I didn't want to disappoint my family James! It was heartbreaking for me too to be pulled away from my best friend! Guess what James, life isn't always peachy perfect! It's cruel and unfair. Nothing goes your way, and when it does, it doesn't last for very long!"

The words crossed. Harsh and icy from both. Crashed like vases. Shattering piercingly on it's way down.

We were going down. The fight was pulling.

The truth was pieces away.

From shattering around us.

As like our faces.

And our eyes.

We were going down.

"...You're right. Life is cruel. Because I have to watch the guy I fell in love with, become and fall for someone else. But I guess I should suck it up and act like a man? Isn't that what you are doing? Sucking up the person you used to be and becoming what they want. Who's life is this, Kendall? Yours or theirs? Because I honestly don't know about that anymore..."

His words hit. Hit a place in my soul that has never been hit.

It was spreading. The ice. The coldness.

He was in love with me.

James Diamond was in love with me.

Kendall Knight.

For no words would mold on my pale lips.

No words spilled from his lips.

For our eyes were frozen for one anothers.

His held more agony. Like his body was drowning. Like he was drowning and would never stop.

I caused this. I broke him.

For the life my parents wanted.

It wasn't worth it.

If my life wasn't mine. If my world wasn't my own.

If the people I have loved, and held was going to wrenched away.

He was right.

But I was deeply, spellbinding, in love with Brandon.

My dream. My lifeline.

For us was the past. For the chance that was never taken. Would never be.

"Maybe you're right. Maybe my parents do control my life. And the people in it...And I-I am sorry that you feel that way. I did love you like that once James. But we never took that chance to find out where it could go. And I don't think we ever will. Because I'm in love with my boyfriend...And he loves me. Life goes on, and I'm sure you'll find someone."

The words didn't sound real. It was almost like a computer. The voice was there. The words did form. But the person behind it...Wasn't the soul within.

It wasn't who I am.

Or who I was?

Am I even the same person.

Or only the shell of who I once was.

"I guess so...I hope your life goes the way you want it to."

His words were broken. His soul was shattered. And the eyes held nothing but of a soul-less shell.

I broke the last piece.

And it broke me.

Why? Why was he doing this?

Why did this have to happen?

And why did I have to feel something when I was already in love with someone else?

Because I loved James.