Best Friends Z.H

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I woke up to a very familiar room. The room that the boys built for me. I stood up and saw how much of a mess i am. I went to the bathroom and washed my face before going downstairs.

" good morning " corbyn smiles kissing my forehead

" good morning " i mutter

" go to the kitchen and eat breakfast. " he says smiling and i nod giving him a weak smile

I followed what he said to me and saw everyone at the kitchen along with hannah and logan . Oh goodness

" good morning " hannah sighs kissing my head

" good morning sis " logan smiles and i did the same thing to him

" here " daniel smiled pushing three pancakes on a plate towards me

" thank you " i mumble sitting down.

We ate in peace luckily no one brought up what happened yesterday. Once I'm done the boys made their way to the living room along with logan.

" i should go take This " suzy says when her phone rang leaving me and zach eating.

I secretly glanced to him and saw him with no shirt on but only sweatpants and him scrolling down on his phone while eating. I broke my gaze and continued eating.

" you should've just left me yesterday " i said breaking the silence

" you should've just thank me for what i did yesterday " he retorts not making eye contact with me

" why would i thank you? You ruined everything " i calmly said looking at him

" why would i leave you? I just helped you for being stupid " he sarcastically smiled looking at me

" me being stupid? " i huff looking at him in disbelief

" pretty much yeah " he shrugs and i glared at him

" I'm not being stupid asshole " i said in gritted teeth

" let me list it down... Your ex boyfriend matthew cheated on you and you forgave him.  Your ex matthew, abused you and you forgave him again. Your ex boyfriend matthew broked you into pieces again and you plead him to go back to you because you think that he's your missing piece.  Yeah pretty stupid max " he says this time he's standing up

" i- i- stop being unfair to me zach. You're just jealous.  " i spat walking towards him with a hard cold glare

" how am i being unfair? I cheated on you once! I ONLY CHEATED FUCKING ONCE YET YOU THINK I DON'T DESERVE ANY FORGIVENESS! YOU THINK I WAS LYING WHEN I TOLD YOU ABOUT MATTHEW BEING PART OF THE WHOLE ISSUE WITH VERONA, GUESS WHAT I NEVER GOT ANY APOLOGY. I WATCHED YOU AND LOOKED OUT FOR YOU EVERY SINGLE DAY AND YOU'RE TELLING ME I'M RUINING EVERYTHING! WHAT IF MATTHEW ISN'T THE PIECE YOU'RE FINDING? WHAT WOULD YOU DO HUH? WHAT? OF COURSE! YOU WOULD CRY YOURSELF TO SLEEP AND RUIN YOURSELF EVEN MORE. LET ME ASK YOU A QUESTION MAX! WHY DOES HE DESERVE FORGIVENESS AND I DON'T? WHEN I AM THE FIRST ONE WHO ALWAYS CATCHES YOU . WHY? " He yells and i looked down

" i.. uh.. " i stutter feeling worse

How come i never thought of that? I've been so unfair to zach.

" i need to go " i mumble running out of the house ignoring their voices calling me

I quickly went inside my car and drove off. You're so stupid max. So so fucking stupid. How could i be so unfair? Zach is right. He was there for me. After all i did to him i don't think i could face him again.

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I went inside my apartment and locked my front door. I ran to my room and cried on my bed.

I'm just so stupid.

I want a break from all this problems. 

A tour would be fine.

My own world wide tour.

Yeah that would be fine, my fans cure me. With the tour keeping me busy i won't have any time thinking about what zach said and such as.

I wipe my tears away and send hannah a message saying that i want a world wide tour for straight 5 months.

I went to my kitchen and saw a picture frame, a bouquet of flowers and a letter lying on my dining table. Who put this here?
I opened the letter first and started reading.

Dear Maxine,       
Hey max. I just wrote this right after you left, i printed out all of our pictures and placed them all inside this big frame. Thank you for loving a man like me. Thank you for understanding me and for accepting who i am. You were the best thing that had ever happened to me and you are still. I wish i could go back to you again and start all over again but i can't because i can't risk getting you hurt again because of me. Max i love you okay? Please understand I'm doing this because of you. Maxine you deserve all the love and someone better than me,  you deserve zach. I wish you could see the way he still looks at you, he regretted what he did to you before but max its been years since that happened. Give him an another chance. He's in love with you. I can tell. You must be confused and lost on why am i pushing you with him, simply because i don't want you to go to an another guy that could hurt you again it could be worse. I want you with zach, man he knows HE KNOWS that you're the one for him he was just waiting for you to come to your senses. Time will come i would be a boy you had loved, and then there's zach who's still there waiting for you nonstop. You deserve zach, zach deserves you. You won't come to your senses right now but days, months and years would past and you would read this again and realized that i was right all along. The missing piece you've been finding has been in front of you all along. You deserve to be happy maxine.  I love you.

- matthew lee espinosá♡

I wiped a tear as it fell down on my cheeks. I grab the frame and saw all of our pictures sticked on it when i mean by all i mean all of it.

Thank you matthew lee espinosá

You've become such a huge lesson for me.