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Feeling like shit
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Its been a week since the incident happened. I choose to stay quiet i don't know maybe because of fear. Matthew's slap left a scar on my cheeks, tho i hide it with make up.
Matthew also apologize saying he didn't really mean it and i forgive him. Telling him its okay.
" hey!! " i grin at the boys
I entered their living room as they continue to play fifa not even bothering to look at me. I shrug them off and sat beside daniel.
" I'm sleeping here " i said and he smiles
" good cause we miss you being here " jonah pouts
" do matthew know? " corbyn asks and my smile drops
I forgot
" thanks for reminding me " i shriek and he laughs shaking his head at me
I stood up pulling out my phone and called matthew.
" matthew? " i ask
" what? " he groans
" i just want to let you know that I'll be staying at the boys' house tonight. " i said can't help but feel scared
" boys' house??? " he asks
" yeah the why don't we house "
" no " he said before hanging up
Sighing in annoyance, i walk back in sitting beside daniel again resting my head on his shoulders
" he said yes " i lie and they smiled
" movies later? " jack asks and i nod my head gidily
I just hope matthew won't go here and pick me up
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We're now at the middle of watchijg a movie when i suddenly felt my phone rang. I pick it up groaning
" hello? "
" where the hell are you? " he harshly asks
" at the boys' house " i simply said
" i told you no didn't i?" He coldly said
I stood up and walk out of the house sitting infront of their pool side. Making sure none of the boys would hear me
" what's your problem matt? Is just them " i quietly exclaimed
" I'm getting you there " he slurr before hanging up
Great he's drunk.
Again
I don't even know why he always drinks too much.
" hey guys? I need to go, something happened " i said right when i got inside
Jonah paused the movie and he and the rest of them looks at me in disbelief
" why what happened ? " daniel asks
" its just matthew " i said softly letting out a small fake laugh
" what happened to him? " jonah curiously asks
" he just.... needs my presence right now " i lie trying not to stutter
" w- "
Corbyn was cut off by a bell. I looked at them apologetically and grabbed my things before heading out of the house.
I saw matthew inside the car clenching his jaw with a cold glare staring right at me. Sighing fearly i climbed in and took a deep breath.
" you never really know how to listen don't you?" He gritted his teeth
" look matthew, its just the boys. You know them, you don't have to do this " i said trying not to raise my voice
" no, you stay with me end of the conversation " he spat before driving
What is really happening to matthew?
I'm so confused, why is he being like this? Where is the sweet, kind and funny guy i love? Am i not enough?
Once we reached my apartment, i quickly climbed out and went inside. I put my things in my room before going to the kitchen to get myself a glass of water.
This relationship is too unhealthy for me. I don't want to go back to the old depressed me. It'll make my life worse. I love matthew but maybe this is for the best.
" no whiskey left? " matthew slur entering the kitchen
" no matt " i said turning to look at him
" bitch " he mutters and i rolled my eyes
Ignoring the fact that what he called me truly hurted me
" can we talk? "
" what " he groans glaring at me
" look, this " i said pointing my finger between me and him
" is not healthy anymore. You hurt me, i forgive you then the cycle goes on and on. Matthew i love you but I'm sorry, I'm breaking up with you " i continue
" you are not breaking up with me! " he yells grabbing my arms gripping it tightly
" I JUST SAID SO " i yell and he slapped me hard
Then he slapped me again before grabbing my hair and threw me on the floor
" your little ass slut is not going anywhere. I'm in charge in here. You love me while i love you and cheska. " he spat
Cheska?
" you still love her after i forgave you countless times?! " i exclaim crying and he slaps me
" cheska is way more better than you. I don't even know why I'm here with you. I'm doing this because she doesn't want me anymore because of you! "
Because of me? How am i the reason?
" LISTEN HERE BITCH! VERONA IS CHESKA, CHESKA IS VERONA. VERONA BROKE UP WITH ZACH BECAUSE I FUCKED HER REALLY DAMN HARD AND SHE DOESN'T LIKE THE FACT SHE CHEATED ON THEIR RELATIONSHIP. YOU ARE NAIVE MAXINE " he yells
I cried harder, i feel so fucking betrayed. Verona is cheska? I can't believe this. Is this how zach found out?
I'm so fucking naive
" I'M BREAKING UP WITH YOU MATTHEW I'M SO FUCKING DONE HERE " I yell and he punched me on my jaw
Fuck that hurts a lot
I fell on the floor holding my jaw crying and sobbing nonstop.
" I'm in charge here " he spat before walking away
