Distance

chapter 2

shes gone. My mom, shes dead... i dont know what im going to do without her.... at least Sam and the rest of them are coming up to Minesota so they can comfort me.

(A/N: lets pretend her funeral already happend okay? good!)

ive started cutting on a daily basis. I know that a bunch of people say this but i didnt necisarally want to die but i know that if i did... i wouldnt mind...

So the guys are coming today i guess. I dont know if it is today because i only go out of my room to use the bathroom. I havent been eating and i'm eaither sleeping all day or not sleeping for days. I've lost like five pounds and Connor keeps telling me i need to eat but, whenever i try i end up throwing up.

I just can't wait for Sam to get here so i can talk to someone.

Sam's P.O.V.

I dont think i can do this, can't face Madi knowing what i did... Maybe i won't tell her. I'll try to hide what hepend.

Yeah, i know its not good to keep secrets but i can't loose her.

Jc's P.O.V.

Sam's been acting insainly weird latley, I think i'm going to ask him about it on the plane to Minesotta.

*On the plane*

our plane was dlayed hours so ive been sitting next to Sam while a little boy keeps kicking my seat.

Jc: so, how have you been? youve been acting weird latley

Sam: yeah... i'm fine

Jc: no you're not Sam, I know somethings wrong... you can tell me

Sam:Fine, I cheated, I cheated on Madi

Jc: YOU DID WHAT?!?!?!?!

Sam: the night they left Kian and I went to the bar... and, when I woke up the next morning there was a girls lying next to me

Jc: do you know what happend?

Sam: the girl told me that all we did was kiss but i started crying about Madi and she was to drunk to drive home so she went to sleep.

Jc: you're going to tell Madi right?

Sam: I want to but, I can't loose her...

Jc: But, if you dont tell her it will hurt her even more

Sam: I just got her and i'm not ready to loose her...

Jc: well if you dont tell her I will

SAM'S P.O.V

I can't let Jc tell her she has to hear it from me

RICKY'S P.O.V

I heard Jc and Sams conversation and I cant believe Sam would do that to her. I hate that I can't do anything about it. But, when she finds out I have to be there for her no matter what.

MADI'S P.O.V

I took a shower and dried my hair, then I slipped on my Taylor Caniff shirt that Taylor bought me and a pair of black joggers. Then i went in my room and slipped on a bunch of bracelets so they might not notice.

Today was the first day that i came out of my room for no reason since she died. I walked down staris and greated my dad and Connor. Today is going to be a good day!

SAMS P.O.V

I have to tell her I'm going to do it when were alone. Who knows maybe she'll forgive me... oh, who am i kidding how can i ecpect her to forgive me when i cant even forgive myself.

*At the airport*

we called a cab and waited till it got here. once we reached the house I was already sweating.

Jc: you can do it man.

Sam: I dont think i can... what if she never forgives me? not only will i loose my girl friend, i'll also loose my bestfriend.

Jc: just let her know how bad you feel maybe shewont hate you...

MADI'S P.O.V

There here!!! I walked out side hopeing to scare them when i heard Jc and Sam talking. After they stopped i walked out and looked at Sam.

Madi: why would i hate you?

Jc just stared at me then looked at Sam and gave him the 'go ahead' look while i started crying.

Madi: Jc, wh-why would i ha-hate Sam.

Jc: I think he should tell you.

Sam: Can we uhm... go somewhere private?

we walked inside and went to my room.

Madi: Sam why would i hate you?

Sam: I'm so so sorry... It was a mistake. the day you left I didn't know what to do so Kian and I went to a bar...

Madi: so, you drink all the time.

Sam: you didn't let me finish. I had a drink then that drink turned into a few drinks and then i kept going until I couldn't walk that's all i remember. Next, thing i know i woke up the next morning next to some... some girl.

Madi: you cheated on me... ho-how could you?

Sam:I was drunk I didn't know what i was doing... im sorry

Madi: sorry doesnt change what happend... i thought i could trust you, but once again i guess i was wrong.

Sam: I don't know what i'll do wit out you... i've been so lost since you left.

Madi: leave

Sam: Madi, please

Madi: just leave... it's over Sam.

and just like that... the best thing that happend to me turned into the worst.