Distance

Chapter 8

A/n: so this chapter when I say "name:" I mean it's what they're saying to her... you'll understand

Sams p.o.v

It's been two weeks... two weeks since the love of my life died. Yep... I don't know what else to say. she was the love of my life and my best friend in the entire world... I can't do this anymore... not with out Madi.

I went to the hospital the day after she died because I cut to deep. We all decided to stop o2l because we can't focus on anything right now.

Today is Madi's funeral and we are all getting ready now. I put my outfit on and attempted to make my self look decent even though there is no pint I looked at my self in the mirror when i had a flash back of a night we went out.

"You look amazing babe." She said wrapping her arms around the back of my waist and smiling in the mirror.

"You don't look so bad yourself" I winked turning around so we were facing each other.

"Are you ready to go?"

"Of course" I replied watching her twirl around in her flowing white dress. she looked so beautiful I just wish I could relive that moment....

"Ready to go?" Kian walked in. and off we went to officially say goodbye to our best friend.

Kians p.o.v

I can't go. I can't go. I don't want to go. I won't go. I just won't go. then it won't be real right? That's how these things work? If you don't do something it never happened....

One can only dream. I got back in bed suit and all and tried to go back to sleep. I was just starting to drift off when Trevor walked in.

"Kian we have to leave soon...why aren't you ready?!?" He yelled

"I'm not going" I mumbled

"Uhm yes you are. Madi was your best friend you and me both know you can't and won't do that to her."

"You're right..."

"Now will you go get Sam? We're about to leave?" Trevor asked.

*at the funeral*

No ones p.o.v
Before the funeral started they allowed people to go up to her casket and say their final goodbye. Trevor went first.

Trevor: wow mads... I don't know what to say you were one of my best friends and you were the one who was always there for me. you're the only one who knows what I've been through and you were still always there for me and I can't thank you enough. I love you. goodbye for now I guess see you soon

Ricky: I don't know where to start. I'm so thankful for everything you did for me and the guys. I love you and I hope I see you soon bae.

Jc: Uhm wow I never thought this would happen... I love you man. you were my best friend along with the guys of course. I want you to be here right now but at the same time I know you are looking over me and always will be. it doesn't feel real you know? It was like just yesterday you moved into the house with all of us and now you're gone.... I'm running out of time so bye for now I guess. I love you and I'll see you soon.

Kian: I can't believe I lost my best friend. I should have been in that car with you. I should be with you now mads. I love you. I still love you I should have been with you... I don't want this to be real in fact it's not real this is all a dream right? It's just a dream. and soon I'm going to wake up screaming and you'll come comfort me just like you always do. you'll rush in my room half asleep and come hug me till I calm down... but it's not a dream is it. you know ever since I got the message that you died I haven't slept and haven't eaten because nothing feels right without you...

Connor: well, I miss you and I love you... All of us guys decided to stop o2l because it's so hard to focus and put anything effort into anything without you. I can't believe you did this to me. You were my baby sister, the only family I really have left, you know dads been distant since mom died... He's even worse now. He's blaming everything on himself, but I can't blame him because that's exactly what I'm doing. I just want my baby sister and best friend back. I hope moms the one who greeted you when you got to heaven... Anyways everyone's rushing me so i have to go... I love you.

And finally Sam... When he first got up there all he did was stare then started breaking down.

Sam: why did you do this to me? You broke me... You were all I had and now you're gone?! I honestly don't want to see another day without you in my life. I'm so great full for the many years we had together but god I want so many more... I love you! No matter how many times I led you to believe I didn't. Madi you were my fucking best friend and the love of my life. All I do is think about you... I miss you. I love you... Forever and always...

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So that's it for this story... I'm genuinely sad even though it took me so long to update...

Anyways...

I love you...and I'll see you soon