Distance

chapter 7

A/n: sorrrryyyy I'm So late and don't ask why I'm updating on a monday. So after this there's only 1 more chapter!!! This is a big one (pretty short though) so keep your pants on.

After I said goodbye to the guys I went and grabbed my purse and keys. When I picked up my purse I noticed pieces of paper. I picked them up and noticed they were the suicide notes I wrote a couple months ago.

I picked them up but decided not to read them because I remembered what they said. They told all the boys how much I loved them and that I was sorry for leaving so early but I couldn't fight any longer and that this just wasn't my place anymore. So they basically just described how I feel right now.

I set the notes on the foot of my neatly made bed and looked at my room. I don't know why but I felt like I just needed to stop and look and soak it all in.

I took a deep breath and walked out of my room closing my door behind me. I got in my car and started the engine I checked my phone before pulling out of the drive way and taking off.

I didn't know where I was going so I just drove and I started thinking about anything and everything then I thought about those notes and why I wrote them in the first place.

It was when I was getting hate for dating sam.
Kill yourself, sam could do better, you're fat and ugly, worthless Bitch, no one really likes you. Those were just some of the things that ran through my head. They're right aren't they? Don't try to tell me they aren't because they are.

I was crying. I can't stop crying. Its all I've been doing lately. I miss Sam. He's all I think about.

I called Sam just so I could hear his voice. All I heard was constant ringing. No answer...great.

Hey it's Sam leave a message!

"Hey Sam I know you don't remember me but I'm in love with you. God I'm so fucking in love with you. I can't help it. You were mine and I let you slip away. Fuck Sam I love you... I can't stop saying it. You're All I think about you know? You're All I think about and it won't stop... I don't know what to do anymore Sam...I don't know what to do. I love you...forever and always."

Suddenly the light turned red but I didn't stop, I didn't want to stop, so I didn't, I kept going.

I looked to my left and a truck was coming right at me. I slowed down and let it crash into me. No, I didn't cry. Yes, I felt bad, but no I didn't cry. I figured everyone's better off this way.

The last thing I heard was the trucks horn as I whisper "bye" and then...I was gone.

I'm dead. I have been this whole time but now I'm physically dead. And honestly the moment that truck hit me was one of the best moments of my life.

Sam's p.o.v

Madi she looks familiar like I know her. Maybe even more than know her, I feel different around her.

She seems to be upset that I don't remember her. Maybe I should remember her. I don't know I just feel different around her then I do Sydney. Maybe I had them mistaken...I doubt it

I would have remembered if Madi was my girlfriend.

I heard my phone ringing but I was in the shower so I couldn't answer. I looked out to see it was Madi calling. I figured I'd just call her back when I was done.

Little did I know I'd never hear from her again...

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He guys so I might do an alternate ending sort of thing but I'm not sure yet.

I also am not gonna update till I get 7 votes. So the faster I get then the sooner I'll update.

See you guys soon I love each and everyone of you!

And I will see all of your beautiful faces...next time I update