✄ "All I've ever wanted was affection. My parents.. they give me none. I grew up without getting kissed goodnight or without being held. All I've ever gotten were bruises and burns and bite marks. I've never had affection. I want affection. I want it so bad. I want you to hold my hand and press your palm to mine. I want you to run your fingers through my hair and kiss me on the head. I want you to hug me. I want you to hug me until I push you away because I've actually had enough. I want you to hold me like I fucking matter. Like I'm someone you care about. Like I'm worth holding. But I'm so scared... scared that when you pull your hands away.. I'll be covered in more marks that show just how stupid and ugly and worthless I am. I crave affection but I flinch away whenever I'm touched."
