Cross my heart and hope to die. Stick a needle in my eye
☾∞☽Here we are once again, walking with our fingers interlocked as the sun began to set. The flaming smoke hazed twilight of a late December evening helped put me in a passionate state of mind. The sun was a bitter line of red, bleeding into orange and yellow hues on the horizon. We were sitting silently on the steps of Wyatt's porch. It was Christmas Eve but there was not a single flake of snow. My nose crinkled as that thought set in. In Maine, we usually had at least ten snow storms by November but this year we only had one or two. I shrugged off the thought and let my eyes settle on Wyatt. The golden hue from the sun created an eclipse in his eyes. I smiled to myself before suddenly kissing him on the cheek. We had decided not to get gifts for each other. It was too much effort when all we really wanted was each other. I decided it was about five o'clock so I stood and walked into the house to make us dinner. We bought chicken a few nights before and I had taken it out to defrost earlier. I threw the chicken in the oven and poured two cups of steaming coffee. I hopped carefully on a counter and lit one of my cigarettes. I smiled as the scent wafted into my nose. It was a comfortable smell, the smell of my own sadness. I heard the front door close and Wyatt spotted me smoking on the counter. He sighed and walked toward me. His hand rested softly on my thigh and I trembled slightly at his touch. I took in another inhale and watched the smoke swirl into beautiful patterns. Wyatt kissed my neck softly and while I was distracted he pulled the cigarette out from between my teeth.
"No baby," he had whispered in my ear, his lips softly teasing me. I chuckled softly and ran my hand through his hair.
"I'm sorry," I replied, and I really was sorry. I didn't want to hurt him. He smiled and kissed my nose.
"I'm going out for a bit, when will dinner be ready?"
"An hour or so," I estimated and he seemed deep in thought.
"Where are you going," I raised an eyebrow suspiciously.
"To buy Jaeden his Christmas gift," Wyatt laughed before grabbing his keys and walking out the door.
Wyatt
"Hurry up Jaeden, we don't have all day!" I groaned as Jaeden climbed into my truck. "Finally," I sighed out as he slammed the door shut. I sped to the car dealership and approached a man, hoping he was the guy I had talked to on the phone. "Kevin?"
"That's me," the man said with a nod and a professional smile. "You're Wyatt?"
"Yes, and this is Jaeden," I nodded to my friend beside me.
"Ah, and this must be the lucky thing you're buying a car for, eh?" The man said with a wink and I laughed aloud.
"No, no sir. It's for my girlfriend.", I explained and Jaeden shifted his balance uncomfortably. Kevin lead us to where there were parked Chevrolet Camaro's. As soon as my eyes saw a certain car, I was instantly in love. The color of it was the exactly shade of Alexandria's eyes when she was happy. Genuinely happy. A beautiful, bright blue. My heart fluttered and I pulled out my credit card. "This one. I want this one," I could not contain my excitement.
"Oh well, Wyatt sir. That one is a bit more than you had asked. I was planning on showing you this one," The man pointed to a matte black car but I refused.
"How much is this one?" I asked, approaching the blue Camaro.
"Well, that one is a 2018 Chevrolet Camaro ZL1. Plus it's a convertible too so... it comes out to be $87,840," The man said quietly and I started to choke on the air. It was a lot, but for Alex it was worth it. The look of genuine surprise crossed all three of our faces when we arrived at Kevin's office and I handed him my credit card. That Camaro was officially mine, soon to be Alex's. Jaeden drove the truck to my house and I drove the new Camaro. I parked the Camaro at the end of the road before hoping into my truck and dropping Jaeden off. Then, I parked in my driveway. We had only been gone for fifty minutes. I opened the door and saw Alexandria silently stirring her coffee. She hadn't even noticed I came in. I snuck up behind her and slithered my arms around her body, kissing her head.
"Baby," Her soft voice cooed and butterflies filled my stomach. I was so damn in love with her. Her eyes looked at mine and I could feel the sadness radiating off her, creating a dark void around my heart.
"What's wrong," I asked, grabbing her hand. She just shrugged. "You can talk to me Alex. You know how much you mean to me," she nodded slowly. My voice began to drop and I kissed her cheek. "Talk to me."
"I don't know why I'm so sad. I'm sad a lot, Wyatt. I really am. Thing is, I have no reason to be sad. I'm here with you and I live with you. You treat me like a princess. You're so perfect. And yet, I'm still sad almost all the time," she hesitated for a moment. "I guess you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness." I listened to her talk, the sound of her voice was peaceful but today it was ominous and full of longing. "Can you promise me something?"
"Of course, Alex."
"Be with me forever. No matter how hard things are. I could never live without you. I need you"
"I need you too."
"But I love you," Alex whispered. We had never said that to each other.
"And I love you too. Cross my heart, hope to die, stick a needle in my eye."
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Brutal Love {Wyatt Oleff} {Complete}
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