virago | rants

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just a quick warning; my mind is like JLNCSDK right now so i don't really know what this is i just kinda thought of it and was like ,, ok

*i'm not asking for attention, seeing as you can't talk about stuff like this without people thinking you're an attention seeker

sO pretty much a lot recently i've been looking around at my friends, and like people my age on social media and stuff and it just sort of reAlLy gets down on my confidence sometimes, yknow ?

like my friends are all so so talented and incredibly beautiful and sometimes when i look at myself i just don't see that and it truly gets frustrating

like i realize i'm not hideous or anything, and all that jazz but sometimes i just feel so useless when put up against some of my friends if that makes any sense ?

i know it all mostly has to do with having confidence in yourself, something i definitely don't have but sometimes it really sucks that litErally it feels like everyone including myself is against me.

and it's not just with things like appearance, it's also with talents. for example, i draw, and i get compliments on them all the time, plenty of people have told me i'm really good at drawing, but i constantly push myself down when it comes to my drawings because i compare myself to others and how much better everyone else is. like for valentines day, i decided i was going to draw a picture of jimin for one of my best friends, and i was so close to ripping it up because i thought it was horrible and i was comparing it to others.

(only reason i didn't was because of kendall, thank you for making me feel better & ily, as well as the friend i made it for liked it which was also a bit of a confidence booster)

but pretty much what i'm saying is i look around at all these people, all my friends, and they are all so beautiful, and each of them have their own talents that they are amazing at like singing, writing, drawing, editing, dancing, and i always end up comparing myself to them and it makes me feel bAd

all in all, comparing yourself to others is the worst thing you can do, please avoid it

anyone who reads this i love you very much and hope you are happy & healthy, thank you