virago | rants

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i know being forgiving is a good trait to have, it's not good to constantly hold grudges

but the thing is, i'm just too forgiving sometimes

i will admit that i do hold my own grudges against people for some time, but eventually i tend to just give in and be nice to them even when i shouldn't

there are certain people that i've had in my life where i just need to cut them off because they're not good for me or they're not good people in general, or as mean as it sounds, i just don't really like them. maybe their personality doesn't work with mine, but whatever the reason, i need to let them out of my life

but i can't, for some reason i always end up letting people back into my life or let them continue to hurt me just in the hopes that, "oh, maybe if i just wait a little longer it will get better"

but it doesn't get better, yet i still continue to forgive them or act like nothing has happened, to the point where i don't even realize i do it and it just happens

i don't want to say i necessarily give too much, because i don't give nearly enough to those who i love, or people in general, but i tend to give too much to those who shouldn't be in my life, and they continue to take from me, and i just let it happen because i constantly forgive

i'm not sure if this rant made much sense, but oh well

hope you are happy & healthy & hydrated, i love you ~